Through Phases

26th January : Bornday

2012-01-26T04:19:00.000+08:00

" People think I'm aggressive cause I know what I want. "

My 20th birthday (24/01) was a simple yet an awesome one! 12pm on the dot, younger brother & the boys sang me...well not a full birthday song but they did anyways! Hahaha! Chillout for awhile then headed to the Halfway to watch Baby & younger brother do their thang. The boys over at HW were sweet too, wished me as well. My Wisma babies, called just to sing me a birthday song & I felt like crying cause they actually remembered! Hehehe. Syasya surprised me with a cake too! The bestest gift ever? Baby gave me 20 kisses(:

The only sad thing was I actually made myself work morning shift on my birthday, well was wanting a two consecutive days off after my birthday, so I have ample rest before work starts on Friday. But alls good! Cousins asked to party on my birthday but I skipped it first cause I'm really tired. Perhaps next month, a belated one. After work, had our annual family dinner in commemoration of my birthday and dad's birthday which was 2 days before mine. Had a great bonding session with the family, I feel so blessed. Thank you God.

I can't wait for dinner with Fel & Naja, my date with my Favourite Girls & party with cousins & siblings!
Till then, I'll update soon! <3

Mood: Elated

Current Song: Doobsicles By Nitty Scott MC

5th January : In Loving Memory of Hajjah Einun Binte Haji Lanit

2012-01-05T16:21:00.005+08:00

"We all have our own ups & downs, but we gotta keep moving on. Memories

are always in our heads but apparently time waits for no one."

On the 3rd of January, few days after her birthday, she passed on.

"We all know how strong she has been all these years but I guess when a person has to go,

there's nothing we can do to stop it. Afterall, ajal dan maut di tangan tuhan.

Rest in peace Nenek. We will always pray for you wherever

you may be. " - Kak Fatin.

We will always miss you & love you. You've been a great mother & grandmother to

all of us & the life lessons that you have taught us are definitely valuable &

won't be forgotten.

♥ (':

2nd January : Closer to the edge.

2012-01-02T22:55:00.005+08:00

"Some people should probably learn how to respect other people's status, such as,

a long term relationship. Don't wreck what's potent for a cheap thrill."

I feel like I'm not in my best moods these days, sometimes I think I dwell on things that's supposed to be forgotten but how could I when it's affecting me? I'm only human, to feel this way. I've never felt this way before, had too much of my highs now I guess my lows are taking its toll on me. Shall have my retail therapy soon, perhaps by myself like I always do, cause mos def it feels like heaven when you shop alone, no one's there to stop you.

So I've been bottling up too often I think it's doing me no good, obviously. Mum said I'm loosing weight, my girls too. I want my perky self back, been long since I last worked out, shall do so soon. Gotta tighten up them huge thighs (but sexy,lol) & loose the mini lovehandles. Gotta pay my sleeping dues as well, I feel like the dead when I'm at work. I need my rest, and a full body massage sounds good too right now. I need pampering, like nowwwwwwww. Anyways talked to Mum about studying abroad, for the obvious reasons, either design or marketing. Honestly, I'm not the kinda person who mugs & it's proven. 26 for O's, who am I kidding. I hope things goes my way, with God's will. Mum agrees, cause I'm paying for myself. But Dad would decide.

Sidelines. Went to Avalon for an event the other day on guestlist, I had great company & partied hard, so it was an epic night. Moving on, celebrated NYE with my girls & boyfriend. It was indeed a very long night, literally. Wouldn't wanna go in to details but yeah, I was just too tired. Damn, I still can't believe we're already in 2012. Last year went pretty damn fast, and this year I'm a teenager no more. Fuck, the big zero is an indication that I need to take somethings seriously. Shan't let my bad habits corrupt me, righttttt but fuck that, I wanna stay #foreveryoung. Anyways, Happy New Year to whoever is reading this (doubt anyone would?) Heard from some, "Same shit, different year." Have faith people, things would get better.

Anyhoo, I swear I miss Gold Coast, I just wanna chill the fuck out & not having to think of anything stressin'. Aside that, am gonna take up sessions at either R! or O'school. Been fucking long since I danced my ass off & it's about time. I don't care what others might say, it's time I do me. Also. Gonna get away from Twitter & Facebook for the time being. I need to take a break from these social networks, it's doing me no good & to some of the people I know. I gotta keep things positive ;)

Bye for now, shall update my blog more often. Fo'real fo'real.

Mood: Shagged

Current Song: Girls Got Rhythm By AC/DC

Happy 3 Years.

2011-12-27T03:06:00.000+08:00

♥♥♥

Need I say more? I love you truly, through thick & thin baby, we ride.

{1st December 2008}

23rd October : Wanderlust.

2011-10-22T22:41:00.006+08:00

" Suffer beside me before you criticize me . "

I miss the cold winter , the hot chocolate , the stroll down to Darling Harbour & the long talks through the breeze at night . It was only last 4 months that we had those & I definitely can't wait for May to come . Plans for Bali & Krabi in December is cancelled cause it wouldn't be fun as it's the monsoon season , defeats the purpose of going there . Anyways , life's good & alls gooooooood . Gonna be transferred out to another store , hopefully town area but I'm glad I'll be out of that shit-hole by mid November . I hate IMM , they have all rounder-barbaric customers . I swear . I'm glad that's all gonna be over soon ! (:

Oh yeah , had my navel pierced . Got my long tresses cut . Bought more shoes . Watched lotsa movies . Got to meet my Favourite Girls & The Babygirls . Work has been crazy but I'm coping well . Our Dinair make up kit has arrived . Went shopping with Aryxsha , copped ALOT . Am using my BB back again . Gonna travel alot next year . I've saved ALOT . Excited . And I can't wait . I'm soo not ready for school . So please don't ask me why I'm not in school . My parents gave me a pass . So don't be hating on me just cause your life sucks ;)

Till then , follow me on Twitter for more updates .

27th August : I've Got My Eyes On You

2011-08-27T01:42:00.006+08:00

" There are times , you need to take a step back & observe what's going on ,

cause sometimes you gotta see life in a bigger picture . "

Back again , finally access to a desktop . Am currently at my cousin's . Couldn't be bothered with my desktop & lappy at home , both are busted . My BB too :( gonna get a new one soon though . Anyways , if you ask me , for the past few months , it's been crazy and I went through hell . I don't need to elaborate further cause it's pretty much a heartache but I'm managing quite well & I'm happier than yesterday . Shit happens & they happen for a reason . I've been tested by God but I'm glad I have overcome the worst . But shove the past aside , we gotta keep on moving with life .

Anyhoo , finally gotten my stuffs online after sooooooo long of not doing so . Gotten my Rebel Yell top (in the picture above), a Rocksmith top for the boy & a Married To The MOB x Baby G watch & some tops from MTTM as well ;) It feels like heaven , gonna splurge again this coming September , can't wait ! Anyways had a break fast gathering with my girls on the second week of the fasting month & I'm ever-so-happy to meet them . Oh yea , went to Youthfest , went to Paramore Live again , missed the Hypercouture Fashion Show , got my hair done , cleaned out & revamped the room & alot more . That's as far as I can remember , I'm goddamn forgetful these days *roll eyes* can't remember things I've done cause I've been too busy .

Speaking of which , I need a getaway , at the end of the month & April next year . So far plans are done , gotta do some booking then wait for the days to come . I'm contented because maybe , just MAYBE , in April , I'll be visiting , Kimberly . Hopefully , plans doesn't backfire . Please oh please . As for at the end of the month maybe somewhere nearby , Krabi ? Bangkok ?

A new year in the Islam Calender is in a few days time & I thank God I haven't thrown any of the days in the fasting month , I just hope I don't speak too soon , if you know what I mean . It's only 3 days left & I'm going Turqoise(?) this year , I don't know what's with the colour but I think I'm loving Turqoise . Got my heels , in black - Giuseppe Zanotti's inspired . As well as my Petit Bucket Bag . Speaking of which , the boy owes me Chanel ;)

I guess that's about it for now , more updates on Twitter .

Mood : Jubilant

Current Song : Make Me Wanna Die By The Pretty Reckless

24th June 2011 : Love like you never did .

2011-06-24T23:26:00.007+08:00

" Love like you're eighty , fuck like you're eighteen . " - via Tumblr

Just got back from ECP with Baby & Predicx , skated the whole afternoon till I got blisters . I think the last time that I skated was before my rollerblades got busted ? Now , that's for a very long time . That explains the blisters I have now :/ but it was fun eventhough the skates weren't comfortable (cause I rented it) . I gotta get new pair of skates , hopefully next month . A longboard looks nice too , idk really cause I go both ways ;) hehehe . But I think I'd pick skates over boards . So yea , I had a great time today ! Thank you Baby <3 and you too Predicx hahaha .

Anyhoo , went to USS 4 days ago , on a Monday with my siblings & I swear it was yet the bestest outing we had . Been long since we actually went out together & therefore we decided to , since Younger Brother didn't get to tag along for the Aussie trip . And of all places , of course we had to pick USS ! Younger Brother had no idea we were heading there till we reached , it was kind of a surprise and I'm glad that Aryxsha & I pulled it off . We took all the dry rides & not the wet ones & I seriously was fucking psyched because we took both of the Battle Star Gallectica ride , both Cylons & Humans . IT WAS FUCKING AWEEEEE-SOME ! I loved the Mummy ride as well , love the atmosphere ! After finishing all the dry rides , had lunch at Celebrity Bakery something something , hahaha . Can't recall what was the name of the place . So yea had a ball of time , spent from 10plus till 5 plus there , am soooo going again cause I haven't complete all the wet rides ! But the aftermath was , having migranes cause the turbulence from the BSG rides , kinda hit me , but good thing is , the after effect only happens when we were heading home . But alls good cause I enjoyed every single bit of the excitement ! Hahaha . Pictures would be uploaded when I have the time !

On the night itself , reached Woodlands , bought Mum a new set of knives for her birthday which falls the day before . The only reason why we picked knives was because it totally goes with the new kitchen . We're glad she's happy with it , had a mini surprise celebration then afterwhich , chillout babyyyyyy with the family & Baby at home . I had a great time , I love you babies <3

Anyways , I really miss my girls alot . Looking through the old pictures I have with me & with you lovely ladies tagging me in your albums of ancient pictures , really , look at us ... I can't believe we've grown soo much ! Hahaha ! We girls have seen , the epicness , the ugly side of each other , so on & so forth for the past years . Yes , we make alot of new friends throughout our lives , some girls remind me of us girls but no girls would ever be the same as you girls are . Now that's alotta " Girls" in a sentence , haha . Okay , my point is .... We make new lovely friends along the way but you girls .... are irreplaceable . I kinda miss the fact that we used to go to school together , going for practices together & so on :(

I can't promise you girls when we're meeting cause currently I'm very busy with the sales but I really hope we get to meet up . I guess that's about it for now . I'll update again sometimes , enjoy reading ! Nights all .

Mood : Exhausted

Current Song : Close My Eyes By Matisyahu

16th June 2011 : Soo many things to be done , soo little time .

2011-06-16T00:39:00.003+08:00

" You can't have a relationship without any fights , but you can make

your relationship worth the fight . "

Whussgood all ? Just got back from my trip not long ago . Went to Australia , for a getaway & it was awesome ! Took the Singapore Airlines to Sydney , then a domestic flight to Gold Coast , spent a few days there then flight back to Sydney , took Greyhound Express to Canberra to visit Aunt Sarah & Uncle Tony . Spent a few days there as well , then we're back to Sydney . I know a very long complicated route we took but it was worth it , every second I spent in Australia is cherished . Spent a total of 11 days . I really had a great time , especially with Kakak & Baby around , thanks to Imran for bringing us around though . There's too many things we did , that I don't where to start with , haha . I'll try anyways (:

So anyways , took Jetstar from Sydney to Gold Coast . Stayed at Hilton Surfers Paradise Hotel/Apartment , got the ocean view & we stayed at the 26th floor , and when come night time it's freezing cold . It's winter in Australia right now , nope no snow but just freezing cold that my plans to strip down in a bikini and baking in the sun's backfired . I knew before flying off that it's gonna be winter but was being hesitant & thought I could handle the coldness apparently not :/

so yea first day at GC , basically just walked around and went for dinner at Zaza Kebab , probably the biggest kebabs I've seen in my life , haha . Did a some shopping after dinner , the best part of staying at the Hilton is that all the kickass shops are just nearby , you name it . Fcuk , LV , Prada , Adidas boutique , DFS & more shops . Hard Rock was just across the street as well .

The second day , we spent the day at Movie World & the rides were fun & unpredictable . Took the Scooby Doo ride alotta times but the Superman Escape only once cause the first time I rode it , I was caught of guard . Fucking epic ! Baby & I sat at the last seats , we were asking each other when the hell is the ride gonna start little did we know , it went fucking fast . 90 degrees up , 90 degress down . I felt like dying , really but it was fun ! & oh , got myself inked at my lower back , airbrush though not real ink :/ wished it was .

By the time we reached back to the apartment at around 5plus it was already dark & so we went out for dinner then did a little more shopping . Afterwhich just lazed around . The 3rd day , shopped a little more then head back to pack our luggage as we flying off back to Sydney the next morning . After packing , Baby & I decided to chill along the beach with some hot chocolate . Longboarded down the Gold Coast as well since Baby bought his longboard there . Speaking of which I felt soo tempted to get some shoes from FootLocker there but apparently Baby told me not to cause my shoe flashing days are over , lol . Level 3 & Neighborhood's are dopeass shops . They sell Crooks & Castle , Rocksmith & more . Sadly , I couldn't find any MOB nor RY . Could've copped them . Baby gotten himself the Crooks & Castle varsity jacket cause I talked him into it , I couldn't help it ! It's just soo nice (:

Sorry , sidetracked . Anyhoo , after cruisin' down the beach , got ourselves dinner from the Noodlebox then head back to the apartment . Next morning took a maxi cab back to the Domestic Airport . Flew back to Sydney & waited for Greyhound Express . While waiting , I "discovered" a booth where I can access to Twitter & FB and so I went online for awhile . You see , I tweet everyday and not getting to tweet as constantly was killing me . Not literally , but you know what I mean . By the time we reached Canberra it's already 9plus , close to ten & it was freezing cold , with the temperature at 15 degress with the breeze . Uncle Tony fetched us from the coach waiting area , the moment we got to Aunt Sarah's house , I felt like just dropping . The travel from Sydney to Canberra was exhausting when all I do is sit , I hate sitting for too long , it tires me :/

The next day , Aunt Sarah brought us to Canberra Center for us to shop & we rode in an Audi ;) Copped some stuffs from Witchery , Sportscraft , David Jones & more . Went to Hype & FootLocker as well , they really have nice shoes . Afterwhich headed to the supermarket cause Aunt Sarah wanted to get some ingredients to make Sayur Lodeh & Nasi Lemak , the Australian style ;) but the food's for breakfast the next day . So we went to get dinner as well & throughout the trip , most of the time I ate Nando's cause it's just addictive . Afterwhich headed home , Baby & I decided to stroll down the road of Legacy Road and down to the supermarket just to get fags . Along the way saw a wild Possum , it's soo cute yet deadly . Haha . Once we reached back at Aunt's Sara's house supper was ready , afterwhich we just chilled at the backyard . Literally .

The next day we went to Lake Burley Griffin , visited the memorial site and whatnots . Spent half the day there then headed to Canberra Center again to get some groceries for supper then headed home . The next day had to wake up early since we taking the coach back to Sydney , it was such a great stay at Aunt Sarah's , I'm definitely gonna miss her . Reached Sydney & the first day , as usual food , coffee then did some shopping then headed to the Darling Harbor . Then next day , went to Taronga Zoo by the ferry , had a great sight seeing so on , then headed back to our hotel which is , The Swissotel on the 21st floor . We stayed at the town area and then again , easy access for some retail therapy . After the trip to the zoo , walked along the Hyde Park but I didn't take pictures though . Bought dinner then headed back to our rooms . After 6pm headed to the Imax Theater , waited for an event to end then bought tickets to Pirates of The Caribbean . The screen was too big that I end up having a slight giddiness upon waiting for the movie to be on screen . Before the movie starts , bought Mum , Dad & Younger brother some stuffs & I copped a top from G-star Raw . I totally love it , cause it's soooooo nice that I couldn't resist , hehehe .

Anyhoo , the next headed to Paddy's Market . Bought alot of souvenirs for our cousins & friends , shopped again , copped some boots then at night headed back to Myers and copped SG$500 worth of Benefit products/make up . Then headed to Sneakerology & bought some snapbacks . Wanted to get the Varsity Jacket from General Pants & Co. but the material is thick and my only thought is how am I gonna be able to wear this in Singapore with the humidity :( sadded !

Afterwhich bought dinner , Baby & I took a walk around by ourselves then headed back to our rooms to pack for return the next day . I didn't wanted to leave :( was still having soo much fun . There's more to it than just this , I'm just typing those I could recall .

& So , parents & younger brother fetched us from the airport . Had supper at Changi Village then headed home , felt soo happy when I reached home upon seeing the kitchen is finally done . It was still under construction the night we left for Australia , now I can bake more often cause Mum decided to get a bigass oven built - in . I'm soo contented ! Oh yea , a week before the trip , Cotton On had Awards Night at Soul & it was one of the bestest night ever . Drank & dance with my Cotton On babies like there's no tomorrow . Hahaha !

Omg , this post is bloody long ! I'll try to keep my blog updated more often , it's been soo long since the last time I did . They say blogs are not necessary anymore but I still keep this junk with me (:

I'll update soon , enjoy reading & oh , pictures of the trip's on FB .

Mood : Contented

Current Song : Lazy Song By Bruno Mars

Seriously ? Cute question , but .

2011-04-18T01:47:00.004+08:00

Wonders of Formspring , the kind of questions that I'll receive . C'mon , you telling

me this like you watched Life In The Fab Lane just yesterday .

I'm sucha bitch , ooops :x

My Favourite Girls

2011-04-16T01:37:00.009+08:00

" Wearing fake eyelashes, doesn't make you a fake. Wearing contacts,

doesn't make you a fake. But the person that you are, DOES. "

Amsyar's birthday party was a great one , I had fun eventhough it started of a little awkward but alls good . Hidayah Manis , Affiq , Mirul & all were there . Baby & Ash came along too , then Sara & friends came just in time . Stayed till after midnight then Ash , Baby & I headed home . Initially , we wanted to chill at Grandcity but we were too tired . Ash crashed my place for awhile then took the cab home . It was a great night indeed , thanks for inviting Syasya !

Anyways , Baby & I catched Suckerpunch . It wasn't a great movie cause I didn't really get the storyline but nonetheless the action packed scene was just awesome . The girls were literally in sex costumes , hahaha . I gave a rating of 6/10 , next movie to watch is The Priest in May ! Cookie Boy , Cam Gigandet is in it ! Now , why does July have to come soo late ?! That's when all the great movies are out :/ Oh yea , bumped into Sherry & Faiz on the day we watched Suckerpunch . Same movie timing , same theater but different seatings hahaha . What a coincidence , all thanks to the convenience of Twitter ;)

Anyhoo , went for a chillout with my Imm & Novena babies . Had a ball that night ! First of all , had dinner with the Imm babies at Pastamania afterwhich went for shisha-ing at Nasrin's & played Monopoly Deal since Nabins was full , bumped into Jidda though ! It was only for a short while but we had fun eventhough we met up late . Had countless epic moments with the girls , we also played truth or dare & the most epic part was when Aeen was dared to ask a bangla for his number , which he gave effortlessly . HAHAHAHA . Left at around 11 plus , just in time for them to take the last bus to their last destination . I stayed at the bustop a little longer to wait for a cab to Newton Food Court to meet my Novena babies , I was lucky I wasn't really alone the whole time . Bumped into Sukini & her friends at the bustop , talked for awhile then headed to Newton .

I was feeling a little nauseous by the time I got to Newton due to motion sickness , all thanks to the cab driver . But despite that , I had a great night all in all . Got to meet Sid , Syah , Shikin , Netty , Ham , Kat , Tricia & the rest . Missed them alot ! Gonna dropby Novena soon , wish to see the rest who didn't turn up that day . Sadded but anyways , pictures are up on FB already . Oh yeaaaaa , I'm sooo glad that I've lost weight ! I'm 40kg now ! Checked this morning , the scale said I am 42kg & I told my Mum about it , little did I know she told me I'm using the faulty one , so Mum took out the new one ( yup , she actually kept 2 ) & I am soo glad to see the digits , I've officially lost weight baby ! I shouldn't have complained about having a high metabolism rate . Just gotta tone up this babies then back to where I was back in 08' it feels goooood .

Aside this , I'm totally pissed off with NAFA's enrollment management . You wanna know what happened ? Follow me on Twitter . Guess I won't be heading back to school AGAIN , this year . Should've just sticked to Avionics at RP . But I don't do so well for Maths , what makes myself think that I can do well for Engineering ? Damn , fat hope . See , getting 27 for O's doesn't helps at all . Now I'm regretting not going to the same course , same class with Meezah at ITE CCK for Tourism & Events Management , I could've attend RP this year after that course , sighs . I'm lucky I don't have to go NS . So it's either I'll be doing Fashion Marketing this year or ITE next year . ITE ain't soo bad right ? :/ I guess school really hates me or maybe I'm just meant to study anymore ?

Damn , who am I kidding . I'm waiting for NAFA to gimme a call about the interview that I've paid for . Guess that's about it for now , gonna turn in soon . Morning shift tomorrow man ! Nights all . More updates on Twitter & oh , I really miss my Favourite Girls . Hope that you girls are doing good , meet up soon lovelies !

Mood : Ecstatic & Dazing

Current Song : King Without A Crown By Matisyahu

Cause I Don't Need Alot Of Friends , Just The Few I Trust .

2011-03-24T03:52:00.005+08:00

" To some saying , " Sorry " means they won't do it again . But to most ,

it means : I fucked up at that moment but I'll do it again . "

Don't mind the previous post , I'm usually a nice girl but when it comes to my Man *snap fingers* DO NOT cross the line . Chey . HAHAHA . Well , that girl deserved every reality check I've given her straight forwardly to her fucking face . And whatever I said to her sure did shut her mouth . I'm sorry , it's just true what people say . Short people usually tend to get angsty easily and have much more vengeance in them . Okay okay , I gotta stop this . Let's move on to the updates (:

I've not been updating and the last post was like in the month of February ? Whuss new right ? Anyways , February had been a blast for me eventhough the first few weeks was kinda fucked up cause I was damn busy with almost everything . The last few weeks paid off . The girls & I didn't get to celebrate Shiqin's birthday but I hope she had a great one . Well , Baby & I didn't celebrated V'day either , cause it was rather pointless ? Why only be soo loving only on that day ? What about every other day right ? Hahaha . The only thing that's special on 14th of Feb , is Shiqin's birthday & her Mama's too . Besides , celebrating V'day with Baby for our first year was more than enough but that was when we couldn't decide if it was pointless , YET .

Anyhoooooo , back to updates . 20th Feb : Baby , Ash , Syasya & I caught No Strings Attached together after chilling with the boys , I loved that movie but I think that Friends with Benefits would outdo them . I swear to God , I can't wait for that movie to be out , JT & Mila Kunis are to die for ! Had a great Saturday but sadly few days later , gotten high fever & Baby was being soo caring & sucha sweetheart for bringing me to the Doctor & taking care off me . Thank you Baby , what more could I ask for :') But he had to order Pastamania when I can't eat solid food for the night but in the end , I took a Pizza from him , hehehehe . Oh yea & I'm soo fucking happy that I've lost 2.5kg in 2-3 months . Been going for jogs & substituting fats with carbs , Baby's gonna join me for occasional jogs & I is soo happy . Anyways , to the girls out there . Losing weight doesn't necessarily means going on a diet or crash diet or not eating food at all . It's all about choosing the right carbs & a healthier diet & I've learnt all these from a friend of mine , try it ! Cause being a lazy fat ass won't help , but it takes time . I dragged my jogs from November , tsk . But it's all worth it !

Oh ya ! Baby , Aryxsha , Syasya , Younger Brother & I caught , I am Number 4 , it's rated 7.5/10 . Well , not so great but I had fun watching . Anyways , as you know someone's birthday just past not long ago . Yes yes , it was Baby's birthday ! So on the 10th of March , he fetched me from work not knowing that my Family & Syasya was planning his surprise birthday celebration on my behalf as I can't be at home to make it happen in time . Cabbed home & we're soo lucky we made it in time when the clock's few seconds to midnight .... So , as soon as I opened the door to home , they sang him a birthday song & Baby's soo damn cute laa ! He was all smiles & giggling and kept on saying , " It's my birthday ! " HAHAHA . The house was dark when he came in & the only light that's lighted were coming from the candles , but of course we turned the lights back on , if not , how the hell is Baby gonna cut the cake right ? Hahaha . Had lotsa Pizzas as well , but that's not the end of the event ......

So on the 11th March , Baby's actually birthday , my initial plan for Baby's birthday was to go for Ice-Skating but apparently he doesn't want to because he wasn't feeling that well but it's okay because I'll definitely hold an outing with RSC for Ice-Skating the next time , the more the merrier . Hehehe . So instead of Ice-Skating & having dinner at New York New York , since he insisted something simple , because he doesn't want me to spend on him . So instead , we went to Queensway to check out new stocks at Da Cave & I gotten his birthday present there ! Gotten him fresh fitted flags' baby . Apparently , Dzul wasn't there but we got discounts anyways ;) after Queensway met Double Dee & Aisya at Peninsula for awhile then headed to the Flyer to have dinner at Popeyes then we had Gelatissimo but hands down , Andersen's is way much better . Anyways , after dinner with them lovebirds , headed back to MSQ to catch Red Riding Hood . The movie's unpredictable but it was a sick twisting family & love story . It was awesome , rated 8/10 but I still hate GV , the reception & seatings sucks . Cathay ftw . The only reason why we catched it there is cause , the tickets were complimentary , so what the hell right ?

Anyhoo , the next day on the 12th was Radikal Forze Jam & Baby participated , was proud of Baby & The Boys eventhough , they didn't get through . The competition was kinda tight man . My mind was merely occupied with RF Jam cause I was cooking up an impromptu plan . Told the Boys & Syasya that I planned to celebrate Baby's birthday for the second time . Yes yes Baby had 2 cakes for his birthday , 1 cake with my Family and 1 with the Boys . How lucky , right ? ;) Alla' them agreed to the plan & we executed it well ;) Syasya , Double Dee , Oneroc , Faque , Ismul , Oneski , Ash & Tam was all down for it & I'm really glad that the surprise was a success . Before this Baby was all angry at me for turning up late after the event finished & he was pissed at the fact that I was gone for quite alotta times during the event but it was all because I was busy planning , but in the end it was all worth it ! I was happy to see Baby being soo contented eventhough he was mad at me , minutes before . So this is what happened : Syasya & I came from the back of the stage at Youth Park & the Boys started singing him a birthday song . Baby almost got sabotaged with the cake , hahaha . We took some pictures , had some random convos & the Boys made a hater video . After awhile then he decided to head home , we were too tired to stand in the train so we cabbed home instead . My weekends were awesome & Baby's birthday is one of the awesome-mest weeks we ever had & it's all thanks to the mastermindsss behind the scenes , hehehe .

Anyways , few days back , Baby & I caught World Invasion : Battle Los Angeles . It was a great movie , 9/10 . I kinda teared up at some scenes cause it felt soo real . But what made the movie more exciting is that Neyo's in it . To see him in uniform and on the battlefield is something you don't see everyday , so ya'll should catch it especially for Neyo's fans . Michelle Rodriguez & the funny guy who teazed himself in Transformers 2 , is in it as well . Mosdef , must watch movie ! Speaking of movies , I can't wait for Friends with Benefits , The Avengers , Thor , Transformers 3 , The X-men : First Class , Dylan Dog , Fast Five & more movies ! There's just soo many good movies coming up but I definitely can't wait for later ! Baby & I gonna catch Suckerpunch ! Awesome ! (:

Moving on , had a chillout session with My Girls at "Teletubbies" last Sunday . Sadly , Marissa couldn't join us but there's always a next time . It's been long since I last met my girls and seeing them again after months , just makes me realise how time goes by fast , and how much we all have changed . We enjoyed the night breeze and talked about almost everything & anything & we're gonna headout for a rollerblading session next month & I predict it's gonna be totally awesome . And mosdef , I can't wait ! I missed my girls soo much already , and hopefully we could chillout more often like old times , I love you Girls <3

Fuckkkkk , this post is bloody long ! Hahahaha , well I guess that's about it now , enjoy reading . I hope to update this space soon , meanwhile stay tuned to my Twitter , don't forget to follow me first ! Hahaha . And Baby , I soo can't wait for _____ <3

Mood : Excited .

Current Song : Mamma Knows Best By Jessie J .

WARNING : BITCHY CONTENT .

2011-02-19T13:20:00.005+08:00

You's A Fucking Fat Bitch Who Thinks My Boyfriend Still Regards You As A " Bestie" Fuck Off FAT Bitch .

You're soo dumb , because you can't tell whether Deeranae's already at her patience limits . Everybody knows that when I am Sarcastic to a certain extend , it means that it's time for you to stop .
You're soo blind & fucking stupid because obviously my boyfriend doesn't give a fucking two fucks to you . He even calls you a WEIRDO , you're fucking DODGY and what else ? Hmm , you're just a bahan to him ? HAHAHA .
It's a big ass mistake for you to delete me off and not deleting my boyfriend . Clearly you're fucking stupid because you still don't get it that I don't like you contacting my boyfriend in anyways .
My boyfriend once says to me that you're soo fucking fat that when you take a shower your feet doesn't get wet .
I don't give a fucking fuck if you've known my boyfriend for like what ? 5 years ? Well , guess what ? That fucking 5 years of friendship don't mean a thing because you know why ? You're just a fucking rebound to every problems that he have , why are you soo stupid huh OLD woman ?
You're fucking 22 years old this year , time to get a stable job , a fucking partner and settle down and not fuck around with other peoples relationship .
My boyfriend says you're fucking ugly but looky here , you still got the cheeks to intrude in others relationship , YOU'S A HO' .
My boyfriend actually didn't gave a fuck when you broke up with your boyfriend because he have things like me on his mind which is way important than your fucking problems .
" Hmph , sombong ! " - kau nak penampar Nabi pe ? Kau nak mengatal pe ? This shows that you're expecting to get attention from my boyfriend .
If you're that much of a smartass , you'd delete him from everywhere possible , if you're not going to do it I will . And trust me , I'd be a bigger bitch to yo' ass .
Last but not least , between the both of us , My Boyfriend would obviously pick me . Hah .

" I'd be the poison ivy if you decide to be an itch to my relationship . "

You're soo fucking stupid because you didn't get that message . Fuck off , before I fuck you up bitch .

Cause I am The One , his Only One .

2011-02-17T00:55:00.008+08:00

" We climbed all the mountains , walked through all the valleys but YOU never left me behind . "

I loved my Thursday , Friday & Saturday last week . Twas' indeed awesome and these days will always be remembered . Went to Dbl O with Baby & The Boys , Kak Lizzie was there as well ! Twas' nice knowing her , she's down to earth & clicking with her was as easy . Sessions was held in the evening , afterwhich we partied for awhile then our tummies decided that we should have supper ! Session was awesome and Baby did great ! I'm proud of you sayang ! Hehehe . Since , it's a monthly event , you'll see me often there . I guess ? Well , provided if Baby's going , I'm a good girl you know :P HAHAHA . Anyways , The Boys , Kak Lizzie & I "partied" a little more in Kak Lizzie's car , named Ashley ! The ride was awesome , I even recorded the boys singing off-tuned & silli-ly to Bieber's "Baby" . HAHAHA , there's no pun intended but it was just funny ! So Abg CA drove us to Teh Tarik at the west area and that's where we had our supper . I was with Baby , Faque , Predicx , Kak Lizze & Abg CA then . After supper , we headed home .. pretty much tired . All thanks to Kak Lizzie for sending us home (:

Anywaysss , Friday , my off day , was spent well at town . Like finally , it's been long since I went town due to busy schedule . Even if I'm free , I would be lazy & without my loved ones alongside it's pretty redundant . Moving on , Baby & I met up with Syasya first , we went to the usuals to check out some stuffs . Syasya was looking for shoes to buy for her daily use for school . So yea went around town by foot to search for shoes of her likings . It's been long since I did and somehow it's killing my feet but all's good because my Baby & Syasya had my mind off the pain by making me laugh constantly and somehow it helped ! I'm so silly , hehehe . We ended up at Cineleisure and Syasya settled for the Nike Blazer which had the Old Skool flavour in it , it's nice Babygirl ! Double Dee & Faque came in the midst of Syasya choosing which colour to settle with . While waiting , Baby was being sucha sweetheart and asked me to try on some shoes cause he wanted to get them for me but sadly the ones that I wanted couldn't fit me , it was too big and my feets are too small :( went to try on some Pointers and it was big as well , so I didn't end up buying and my sweetheart was being such an angel for cheering me up (:

All of us then had dinner at Pastamania & there , a laughing massacre happened . Double Dee and his jokes are killing all of us . I cried laughing ! Hahaha . The rest too ! Took some pictures afterwhich headed of to Scape to chillout , there we took more pictures ! Thanks to Syasya for bringing her camera along , mad love ! So yea after alot of crap talking and jokes and whatnots , we headed home . Well , we still can't stop laughing in the train (:

On Saturday , I was working morning shift and ended at 5.30pm . Headed straight to RP to catch Step It Up , an annual event for the Bboys to battle their hearts out . Met Syasya first then off to RP . Baby , Younger Brother & The Boys are already at the studio . The event was mad dope , the battles are off the hook . Eventhough the Boys didn't managed to go through the next round , Semi-Finals , you guys did great ! After the event chilled at Civic for awhile , had takeaways from McDonalds and there , a laughing massacre happened again . We then decided to chill somewhere else , our initial plan was to hit to the Lan Gaming to play L4D2 as usual . But we wanted to do something different for the night . So insteaddddd , we played PICTIONARY , the card edition . The game was tough but I won most of the cards ;) HEHEHEHE . Baby , Younger Brother , Syasya , Abg CA , Ash , Ismul , Double Dee & Predicx was there , and it was a helluva night . We played the game till dawn . And best yet , the place we chilled at is only 5 minutes away from home (:

Well , it's not everyday that you get to laugh your ass off and have lotsa fun regardless of how silly you may look laughing chronically and whatnots . I mos def loved these 3 days , it was spent well and I loved the company . Thank you for making my weekend a great one . Kudos to , Baby , Syasya , RSC & Younger Brother . We shall do this more often , just like old times . Anyhoo , I guess that's it . I'll get too contented later , hahaha . Gonna hit the sacks soon , I'm on morning shift tomorrow omg . And I can't wait for Saturday , it's cousin's engagement day & I def gotta be there . See you awesome cousins soon <3

Mood : I feel Awesome .

Current Song : Ain't No Other Man By Christina Aguilera <3

Where my Girls at ?

2011-02-17T00:34:00.003+08:00

I hope I'm never too late but then again , Happy Belated 19th Homegirl . I hope you had a great one love . You're such a talent & you're a natural darling . You're blessed with beautiful looks and gifted with the voice of an angel , your knowledge is a plus point . It's been a decade since then , and this year's the 11th year that we've known each other & nothing will change that . It's been long since myself and the girls meet up and most definitely , I've missed you and the girls alot <3

What I love about us girls , eventhough we've not been meeting up for a catch up , we pretty much know what's up & I've been trying keep up by reading you girls' Twitter :( I understand that you girls are busy with school while I'm busy with work but one of these days , I'm sure we'll meet . It might not be sooner , it might be later but the point is we are meeting one of these days . And I hope , with God's will , sooner . I hope you girls are reading this and I hope you girls are managing well with school and life as well <3

Alot Like Love

2011-02-05T04:11:00.003+08:00

" Good things comes , for those who waits patiently . "

So , this year we didn't celebrate Mum & Dad's anniversary cause both me & Aryxsha worked night shift but we wished anyways ! Hehehe . Mum & Dad gave a surprise visit to my store last 3 days on the their anniversary which falls on the 2nd of February . They didn't stayed long , we just talked for awhile then afterwhich they just walked around the shopping mall . After work , they fetched me with Nadhzierah along since her house is just along the way after that we headed to fetch Aryxsha from work , wanted to have supper at Madinah with the family afterwhich , but Younger Brother was having moodswings I think urgh , so in the end I went out to meet Syasya instead . Did alot of catching up , was glad to see her (:

Work has been great soo far , I love my colleagues ! And I'm already getting the hang of closing , which is good thing hehehe . Past few days , have been tiring for me but I'm doing it for the monehhhh and of course , cause of the commitment . Well , I was pissed because all the full timers and part timers in my store have already gotten their pay which falls on the eve of cny , and I've only received a pathetic amount , like really pathetic but I told myself it's still a blessing to atleast to be receiving than nothing at all . Ayuni asked me to wait for the 7th which is in 2 days to get my pay . Yup , I'm very particular about my pay because it's my own hard earned money , from all my hardwork and having discrepancies is a big no no . I mean who doesn't right ? Pfft . So , they better pay me on Monday . If not .......

Anyways the picture above were taken on both Dad's & my birthday celebration , I feel blessed indeed , once again thank you my loved ones . Oh yea , just got back from Grandcity with Syasya , pretty much nothing to do since today's my off day . My Saturday off and I guess I'll bump at home AGAIN . Why am I always planless when I'm already given Saturday off -.-" FML . And when people ask me out , I'm working , FUCK . Wrong timing please .

That's all hehehe , I guess I'll update again soon . Hopefully . Good mornight all ! & Baby , I miss you already , Thursday come faster please :((

Mood : Insomniac

Current Song : Price Tag By Jessie J Featuring B.O.B

Go Shawty , It's Your Birthday ;)

2011-01-31T18:48:00.008+08:00

" The only girl bestfriend a boyfriend should have is their own girlfriend . "

So , my bornday was an awesome one ! I totally didn't expect anything at all . Furthermore it was a monday , I mean come on , rarely people celebrate on mondays but I was wrong , hehe . To start off , Aryxsha & Syasya was kinda ticked off cause their plans for me backfired because I had to be somewhere & it was being paid for . I mean come on , how am I supposed to know that you guys are planning something for me if it's meant to be a surprise , but I'm really sorry for that but that's not the end . Cause it didn't stopped them because they had plan B in mind , so Aryxsha & Syasya brought me to dinner at Swensens , halfway through Baby came along , after desserts , Baby & I left cause we had to be somewhere . Well , long story - short ; Baby was supposed to sleepover at Chpx but he insisted that he wanted to sleepover my place and texting someone fishily , then little did I know he was part of the plan for my surprise celebration (:

Well , I felt like I was missing something when I was opening the door to home , cause it was locked and through the looking hole from outside , the house's dark but I heard gigglings & heavy footsteps going on inside , so I stopped for awhile then opened the door slowly , then there they were recording me on video & singing me a birthday song , for a moment I thought I was in the wrong house -.- but hey , I was really surprised alrightes ! THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO MADE IT HAPPENED , first of all my Family , Aryxsha , Syasya & my lovely Baby ! I really appreciate it alot , and to those who wrote in the fabulous pinkcard : My girls , Sherry , Falisha , Sheeq & Marissa , as well as Aryxsha's girls , Nadd , Nana , Azura & Nuruz . And thank you to all who wished me via Facebook , Twitter , text messages , calls or in person , I really appreciate it all :') You guys really made my day ! My birthday cake was beyond delicious and the gifts I've received were fabulous ! I love the Juicy Couture wristlet the most cause it was in one of my "list" hehehe , thank you my lovely people ! <3

Soo many things happened but there's just to much to blog it out , hehehe . Anyways , Aryxsha , Syasya & I watched BURLESQUE again , a few days after the first time we watched it , hehehe ! It's an awesome movie , you'll have to catch it ! I think I'm going for the 3rd round with Baby since he haven't watched it yet ! Can't wait ! And the next movie , I'd love to watch is , No Strings Attached , hehehe ! Can't wait too ! Oh yea anyways , we had a surprise celebration for Dad's birthday as well and we got him the Dr. Martens casual shoes that he wanted for his occasional dinners and gathering , and I tell you , he's loving it cause it's the ones he wanted ! Hehehe , Syasya & Baby was present too ! We had pizzas , all thanks to Baby ! And the cake thanks to Aryxsha , and the BBT from Syasya (:

Well , January's been good to me and so I wish February would be too . March is in a month's time and I can't wait for it as well as June . Please come faster ! Hehehe . And oh , pay's in a day can't wait to splurge ! And I can't wait for my school's results too , hopefully by July I could start school already (:

That's about it for now , tune in to my Twitter for more updates , don't be shy to follow me ! Hehehe , goodnight all ! (:

Mood : Contented (:

Current Song : What's My Name By Rihanna .

All in All .

2011-01-18T17:11:00.011+08:00

" Truth is everybody is going to hurt you , you just gotta find

the ones worth suffering for . " - Bob Marley .

Soo much for updating frequently , been busy with school applications and work of course . Speaking of which , I'm missing my Novenians big time ! Now that I'm in a new environment , there's a lot more to learn . But I'm managing well , I just have to commit cause the pay is a bomb , hehehe . Anyhoo , it's a bit tad too late to talk about Christmas week & New Year's Eve but anyways ...... Gotten my Christmas present from Aryxsha , them bubblegum kicks I've been wanting since , back in 07' , so go figure or stalk me on Twitter to find out . Didn't attend Christmas gifts exchange cum Store Meeting at beloved Novena Outlet cause I totally spaced out about it , sighs . But lucky for me I still had a great Christmas night spent with Aryxsha & Syasya , had dinner and desserts at Wheelock's NYDC again & went Ion to do some damage , went to Sephora ( gotten some UrbanDecay Palettes & 2Faced products ) , shopped at F21 , River Island & Levis' as well , pay day come fast ! I wanna shop again . And Baby ! I wanna go get desserts at Andersen's with you sooooon ! <3

Anywaysssss . As for my NYE , initially wanted to celebrate with Baby & The Boys like old times but most of them were celebrating at other places . I don't wanna talk about the last half an hour before 2011 cause it was just an utter disappointment , merely spending NYE at home , which fucking sucks alot but in the end , went to Starbucks at Northpoint ! There was only Aryxsha , Syasya & I , then Baby decided to tag along cause he told me that there was nothing much at The Bridge & twas' boring . Initially Baby invited me to come along cause most of the people I know is gonna be there but still , ain't my kinda thing . I don't drink , well not anymore ... Nor do I club ... well not yet . HEHEHEHE . All in all , had a great New Year spent with my loved ones ! Did alot of catching up while at Starbucks , since Northpoint's Starbucks was 24/7 , we stayed till 3am in the morning then waited for breakfast at Macdonalds (:

Had our breakfast then cabbed home , woke up in the afternoon with a throbbing headache which luckily lasted only for a few hours . Baby & I decided to catch a movie in the evening and so we did ! We watched Gulliver's Travel , well it was hilarious and so I rate it 9/10 . First movie of the year ! Hahaha . Then the week after , we catched Season Of The Witch , it was totally awesome , and it's rated 8.5/10 by Baby . Initially wanted to catch The Tourist , but ratings says that it wasn't as spectacular so skipped that . But I still wanna watch it on DVD .

Spent last Sunday afternoon , at Baby's workplace & I am soo happy to meet him after a week , he couldn't get a day off cause he's taking two days off this week . So I visited him instead (: and I can't wait to spend my Thusday , Friday & Saturday nights with him (: it's either this weekend or next weekend that we're gonna catch Love & Other Drugs ! Omg , Anne Hathaway ! Anws , afterwhich , headed back home to meet up with Aryxsha & Syasya then off to catch BURLESQUE ! Rated 10/10 , the movie's just beyond phenomenal ! Loved it and gonna catch it AGAIN , tomorrow . Once is not enough , am so gonna get the DVD once it's out ! (: Oh yea , afterwhich we girls dropped by Civic's Starbucks to get some drinks then headed home , ahhh a weekend ended with a beautiful note , to add on to it , my Baby was just being soo sweet ;)

So yea , anywaysssss . I hope that Sara's happy with her new shoes that I bought her in replacement of her previous Adidas . Yes yes , it's her first Pastry . Pastry Delight in White !

If twas' mine , it would've been my 5th pair of Pastry ! Buuuuuuuuut , gave that honour to her instead , hehehe :P Hope you love it babygirl ! I couldn't wait till today to give it to Sara cause it arrived a week earlier on a Saturday ! When the shipping usually takes up 2 weeks but what the hell , the shoes here anyways and with Sara now (: Anyways just got back from chillout session with Syasya , Sara & Farhad , at the Peak , the place was damn chilly but we had fun talking nonsensical stuffs as usual , hehehe . So yea , I'm actually kinda dazy as usual that I can't recall most recent events . I guess this would do , update soon OR later (:

P.S : My dear Baby , missed you alot already . Thursday come faster ! Hope you're reading this , hehehe ! Lotsa love and hugs ! Xoxo .

Mood : Dazy & Sleepy

Current Song : Bound To You By Christina Aguilera

Warning : Long Content .

2010-12-21T22:50:00.008+08:00

" Ain't about how fast I get there , ain't about what's waiting

on the other side , it's the climb . " - Miley Cyrus .

I'm gonna start off by thanking my lovely people for your blessings , I'll definitely keep on keeping on and I really appreciate it . Throughout the two years , it really wasn't as easy , honestly . But , I'm glad my Baby & I made it through to the 2nd year , I'm genuinely happy and mos def , blessed . Oh yea , am no fan of Miley but the quotes above are an exception . I mean , come on it is true . It's the journey that counts , I mean afterall that's what makes a relationship stronger (:

Anyways , sorry for the long absence . Well , this time I wasn't busy at all , rather lazy to update but hey , I'm here now . So the following happenings are as far as I can remember :/ other than that you could stalk me on Twitter , lol . So , on the day of our anniversary instead of spending time with Baby , went out with the family to catch Rapunzel in 3D . Well , my dear Baby was working and had to head back to his JB home in the evening by then , so we spend our time together on his off days instead . Rapunzel was a great and hilarious movie , I swore I had tears due to massive laughter . Haha , okay no . Was just exaggerating a for a little bit . Anyways I'd rate it 7.5 /10 .

So , a few days before my big day and my cousin's wedding decided to go around town , I can't really recall exactly what Aryxsha was looking for but Aryxsha , Syasya & I ended up at the nail parlour and got our nails done , all thanks to Syasya for recommending . Initially , Syasya was supposed to go for a job interview but in the end she skipped that idea since we reached town a little late in the afternoon . So , afterwhich we had dinner at Breeks . It was Syasya's virgin visit to Breeks and she was soo epic ! Haha . Aryxsha & I couldn't stop laughing cause she asked the waiter to do something outta the blue , lol . So yea , Aryxsha's birthday had been a great weekend . I hope you enjoyed your weekend & the surprises , Kak ! Not only that she was happy but she made me happy for getting Candy Kisses for me , now that's the third !

As I've mentioned , my cousin's wedding was great . Got to meet the fabulous cousins and uncles and aunts , and especially my chubby nephew , Haziq ! Omg laa , damn cute laa please . Hahaha . Gerams ! Hehehe . Among all , he's the cutest . I have soo many nephews and nieces , that honestly I don't know who is who . Damn , now I feel old :/ Anyhoo , I only attended to the bride's side which was only 2 blocks away . Didn't had the time to go to my cousin's side since I had something important on , well afterwhich Baby & I celebrated our 2 years anniversary by spending time together , it was rather like any other tradition for couples but I really had fun . Cabbed to Somerset , then walked around 313 for a little while afterwhich headed to Applebees to dine in .

Baby had the Quesadilla Burger with some side dish & I had the Fiesta Lime Chicken . I wanted to order more side dishes but the portions were kinda big for side dishes and I was afraid I couldn't have desserts :( so yea , after dinner went to collect tickets for My Soul To Take . While waiting we killed time by just walking around . I was actually craving for Marvellous Cream but we came across B&J's , so Baby was being sucha sweetheart for getting me dessert , since I treated him dinner and the movies , teehee ;D Oh yea , did I mentioned the food at Applebees are so Spanish oriented but they tastes soo good ! And My Soul To Take was an 8/10 (:

I can't recall most of the events that happened for the past 3 weeks but as far as I know these were the movies I've watched , hehehe . A week after My Soul To Take , Baby & I watched Let Me In which was rated 8.5/10 by Baby . On a weekday , watched Hello Stranger with Aryxsha . We find it a rather funny and sweet movie , ratings 7.5/10 . I would love to catch it again in cinemas ! Hehehe . The recent movie that I've watched is Tron Legacy in 3D with Baby , it was an awesome movie and Sam was cute , ratings 9/10 ! Hehehe . So yea , that's about it now . I know it's sucha a long post . I promise shorter posts in the upcoming posts ! I'll update soonish . For more , follow me on Twitter !

Last but never the least , I Love You Baby (:

Mood : Contented !

Current Song : Ayo By Methodman & Redman (:

Dear , Muhammad Nizam .

2010-12-01T01:30:00.007+08:00

Happy 2 Years Anniversary Baby ;

Never did I regret making the huge decision , of having you in my life . The routes we took wasn't a smooth sail but of course , like every other lovebirds , we do have our rough times too but despite that , nothing could compare to the blissful & memorable happy times that we had & have together , yes nothing could compare . Though forgive me for at times , I'm being a small prick to you but I am only being one , because I care for you & for us & in some cases , I don't like sharing especially when it comes down to my man :((

Eventhough for the first few months together , our flaws , differences & bad pasts consumed us but despite all that , we worked things out & took a leap of faith to change for the better & started anew . And up till now , I'm glad that we did & I'm proud of us . I can't imagine live without you & I don't even wanna go into that topic . You've created sucha big difference & made an impact to my life . You've always been an awesome boyfriend & still is ! And as cliche as it might sound , I wanna grow old with you . Believe me when I say that & trust me when I say you're the only one .

Thank you for being there for me at the times I needed you the most , thank you for your support , thank you for your concern & protection , thank you for your love & affection , thank you for everything . You mean the Universe to me & I'd never wanna lose you :')

I Love You <3

P.S : I can't wait to spend my Friday & Saturday , only with you since we can't meet on this very special day & I've got alot to share with you as well ! Friday , please come faster (:

Where Them Big Things At ?

2010-11-30T23:12:00.006+08:00

" You don't know how a person feels when they face certain problems not until

you face it for yourself , so stop judging like you're soo perfect . "

Yea , soo much for " update later " . Fell asleep after the previous post , was lazy & ended up not updating at all . Nothing much happened for the past few weeks , just that I really enjoyed my weekends with my loved ones since I've not been working regularly due to the low sales . Yeaaaa , sucks alot . So I spend my days either at home or just somewhere nearby home . Last Friday & Saturday , as usual , was out and about at town . Am with Baby , we then joined Sherry & Asha for lunch . Shiqin joined us too but a little later in the night , at the Titanic . It was one of those funny moments my girls , Baby & I had . And I pretty much enjoyed myself on that day . The day before fetched Baby from JP since he was from work , we then headed to Cityhall to get some stuffs & Baby bought me the watch that I wanted ! Thank you Baby (:

Anyhoo , yesterday was kind off a sibling's day out for my siblings & I . It was an impromptu outing actually . I suggested to Aryxsha that we should visit Ikea ( Tampines ) since we want to revamp our room . Asked Younger Brother as well and surprisingly he wanted to follow , usually he can't be bothered cause he's lazy to travel . But we had mad fun yesterday . Surveyed some stuffs for our room and younger brother's room as well . We worked on our budget and decided what to get when we visit Ikea again next month . We even took pictures and measurements just to be sure it fits our room , hehehe . After surveying , we had a quick bite at the Ikea cafe , afterwhich waited for the shuttle bus from Ikea to Tampines One . Initially , Aryxsha wanted to dine in at Pizza Hut but upon seeing Nydc , we were soo tempted to try the mudpies and cheese cakes . And so we ended up dining there . Everything was excellent just that , the 3 of us were freezing cause it was damn cold ! Idk how the others could actually endure :/

The 3 of us were literally shaking & we took soo long to eat our desserts :/ but somehow we managed to finish them anyways and got our asses out from Nydc straightafter settling the bills , we couldn't take the coldness no longer cause we started feeling cold when we were indulging through our main courses . Yup , that long . So then this is where the fun begins , the family & I planned out a surprise celebration for Aryxsha since today is her birthday . We were supposed to reach home 12mn on the dot yesterday but apparently we got home earlier . So yea , the moment Aryxsha opened the door to home we sang her and she was speechless , then ... oh you know how it's like when you're surprised . Gotten her presents as well . Younger Brother bought a charm bracelet , Dad bought a pearl bracelet & Mum bought a set of pearl earrings for Aryxsha , all from Citigems . Well , as for me ... I bought her the Lola Wedges she wanted eversince she set her eyes on those babies . She matched them with her LBD for her birthday celebration earlier on & it looks damn nice on her . I'm glad she loves all the gifts (:

So yea , just a few hours back , I got home from celebrating Aryxsha's birthday at town . We made reservations at Carousel but apparently we were put on waiting list since reservation was full for high tea . We couldn't wait so we ended up dining in at Seoul Garden instead at Taka . Before that went to Juicy Couture & Aryxsha had a hard time pulling me out . I wanted the purse since like ever ! And so I hinted her to get it for me for my birthday hehehe . Had a great time as well just now , Aryxsha's boyfriend was there too .

&& Oh ! Once again . Thank you soo much Baby , for the watch ! I really looooooooove it ! Baby G's Hellz Bellz Limited Edition , hehehehe ! Advance anniversary gift , I suppose ? Hehehe . Baby gotten himself a new watch as well , G-Shock's 1289 . One of the latest , it's damnnnnn nice ;) Oh yea Baby gotten himself new sneakers too , Vans . Crooks & Castles , limited edition as well (:

Mine & His (:

I'll update soooooooon ;)

Mood : Ecstatic .

Current Song : Big Things By Chris Brown & Ester Dean .

You're One In A Million .

2010-11-23T00:48:00.012+08:00

" Love is about forgiving & ready to be hurt again if necessary . "

Yea , from the title & the quote , you pretty much can predict that this post is different than my usual posts . Well , there's no occasion really . Just that , my heart feels kinda heavy & kinda need to let things out , well just my thoughts & views of what most teenagers' stressed about . Yup , it's a special feeling / spark called Love . Can you define what's love ? Well , everyone have their own definition of love . There's no right or wrong answer to this question cause I believe everyone have their own opinion & as humans , we just gotta respect & appreciate each others opinion/thoughts . I don't really know where this is going but just bare with whatever I have to say in this post afterall this is My Blog .

Well , as I've mentioned . My definition of love is not only about commitment & passionate affection but rather having potent understanding towards each other . It's not only about similarities , the differences plays it part too , that's where getting to know each other much deeper applies . Apart from that , one major thing a partner shouldn't do is keeping their problems to themselves . What's your other half for ? If you trust your significant other , you should be able to open up to him/her no matter how slight/bad the problem could be . If your partner is still the one you could see being with in the future , then there's nothing to hide , agree ? Because he/she's the person you'll have to eventually turn to when the world turn its back on you & if you trust your lover not to judge you from your problems then there's nothing to be ashamed or afraid of because no matter how slight or bad it is , he/she'll still love you & he/she does , he/she's a keeper . Corrections , the sentences above shouldn't even be , " IF you trust your partner ... " You should trust them , no If's , But's or Maybe's . And I've learnt that we shouldn't runaway from problems cause it'll come back haunting & trust me , that ain't healthy .

Trust plays a big role in a relationship . " It takes years to build your trust on someone but it takes seconds to break it . " I'm sure all of you are familiar with that quote . Honestly , I've learnt my lesson & I admit I was wrong in the past but hey , I'm only human & humans makes mistakes . My route wasn't smooth sailing , NO relationship is , it's almost impossible . If you think being in a relationship is easy , it ain't . It's not only about the affection but rather ........ " Commitment , Compromise , Trust & Sacrifice . " Most people out there are afraid of these words cause anybody in the right mind would know what lies ahead of them cause I gotta admit it's a pretty big ass responsibility that you gotta be prepared for . If you love someone , you'd go the extra mile no matter how the situation is .

Anyways , this goes out in general . If you don't like something you see , speak up or forever hold your peace . If your significant other means the world to you , don't hesitate cause second chances are hard to come across . I've come to realise that speaking up makes a huge difference eventhough at times hurting is involved . So yea .... There's soo much more to the meaning/definition of love . I guess this is as far I could think of as for now & this is partly what I needed to let out . I'll post another entry later in the afternoon about whuss good . This entry's seriously not planned for , didn't expect myself to actually be so spontaneous about something rather confusing ? Hahaha ! Well , not exactly . " Love's not confusing . The people in its circle's the one making everything confusing . "

Aside all that , did I mentioned that the picture above is one of my favourites ? Now , you do ;) I missed that day that's filled with pure love . Have a good night readers , I'll update later .

P.S : I Love You , Muhammad Nizam & Mos Def I Miss You Alot <3

Mood : Lovestrucked .

Current Song : One In A Million By Neyo .

Days Like These .

2010-11-19T00:18:00.008+08:00

" Don't get into a relationship cause you wanna prove others wrong , instead

get into a relationship when you're ready & madly , deeply in love . "

Been long since I last met up with My Girls & Serenade , I've been reading their blogs & twitter just to update myself . I really hope they're doing fine , I love you girls . Anws , I didn't get to celebrate Hari Raya Haji due to work , at my previous workplace . Aryxsha said there's nothing new when she went for house visiting with the family . So I assume I didn't miss out much ? So yea . Since workplace's at town area , met Baby after that . Then as usual Chpx tagged along , since he wanted to do some shopping , as well as Baby . Oh yea , Baby bought me the cap that I saw from Tumblr , the one that I wanted to be precise . Thank you Sayang ! Hehehe . It was the last piece & it fits me perfectly ! Yaay ! The one from Tumblr's in a different colour but I'm glad Baby bought me the one above cause it matches well with my Converse . Wanted to get the Nixon but the one Baby bought me is beyond pretty , even Baby wants his own piece cause he said it's damn nice hehehe . I'm not really into the category of labels that " Nixon " falls into but this one's an exception man . Once again , thank you Baby ((:

Shopped & Baby gotten himself a new pair of shoes , pair of jeans . Same goes for Chpx , afterwhich we sat around , the boys smoked for a little while then headed home . We went separate ways from Chpx since Baby's heading home with me & sleeping over my place . Well , we didn't really slept when we got home . Baby & I watched the Lottery Ticket , starring Bow Wow . The storyline was creative and it tickled my funny bone cause some parts are just so goddamn epic , still Bow Wow's hot as ever *melts* hehehehe . We had a movie marathon . Watched The Lottery Ticket afterwhich Knight & Day , followed by She's Outta My League & The Social Network but Baby slept half way through since he needed his rest cause he's working the next day .

Baby slept over the night before as well & we watched The LXD , The Legion Of Extraordinary Dancers . I swear to God that it's another full rated movie , it's mad dope . The Bboys & Dancers are mad talented & they're damn smooth . Ahuh , it's another production by Jon M. Chu . He reppin' The Acdc & LBM's in it , mad love to you man . He created this movie for talented dancers/bboys to showcase their talents , of course . I can't wait for Season 2 ! Oh yea , in case if you're wondering , this is the movie I'm talking about in my previous entry (:

So , I guess that's it for now . Damnnnn , it's really not interesting to see my posts not filled with colours . The fonts used to be purplish in colour or something else , but look at it now -.-" bloody dull in black . Sighs , I gotta do something about this & my blogskin too but #wheregottime . Hahahaha , more updates on Twitter ;)

Mood : Dazing .

Current Song : Need You By Travie McCoy .

I Like That .

2010-11-14T11:48:00.000+08:00

" You're a Diva baby & nothing gets a Diva down . " - Tiq <3

So , I spent my Sunday at a wedding . Well , helping out with a the wedding that is . I swear to god that it was my first time doing soo . Well , all in all it was okay . Just that , honestly I hated the uniform given :/ I'm just doing mummy's friend a favour of helping plus I could earn some moolahs while doing so too . It was kinda dodgy for the first few hours , but I got through the 6 hours . Damn , who am I kidding ? Everything feels soo dodgy -.- well , I was the one who felt soo caged . What I hated most was the weather , it was rainy heavily , the electricity tripped alotta times , I had countless moments of slipping but am lucky enough that I didn't fell , it was cramped since the wedding is held for two couples . So that's double the strength than normal weddings . I was kinda soaked and to add on to it there's TOO MANY familiar faces . And as bimbotic as this would sound , I broke a nail when I just got it done :(

Sorry , but I can't help to rant about the wedding . Damnit , I should stop complaining :/ But anws , I was in awe looking at the relatives who attended the wedding cause most of them are just soo beautiful ! Like Native American plus Japanese kinda mixed blood . They like erm , Kristen Kreuk , Vanessa Hudgens & Hayden Panettiere kind of pretty that even the girls you thought were pretty aren't soo pretty compared to them . All the girls were speechlessly beautiful . Oh yea , eventhough it was cramped & all , the set up's still gorgeous . It was orange/yellow/gold themed . Come to think of it , everything and the wedding was alright , it's just that I think I wasn't that mentally prepared for this .

Anyhoo , spent my weekends with my Baby ! He fetched me from work on Friday night then slept over . On Saturday morning supposed to accompany him to his workplace cause he wanted me to watch this movie soo badly . And I was really looking forward to it cause he showed me the trailer and I simply fell in love with it but apparently we didn't head to his workplace cause we slept all the way till late afternoon . Now I can't wait for Tuesday when he brings over the dvd , hehehe . Few hours after waking up , we headed to Aryxsha's close friend's wedding at Fairway Club's Poolside . As I was invited , I came along but I brought Baby along with me as well if not he'd be alone at home , haha . We were allowed to wear dresses so I attended in my LBD . Saw familiar faces there as well & oh the desserts were nice , hehehe . After the wedding we headed to Jurong Point since Aryxsha wanted to get her stuffs .

Chpx tagged along since he was around the area . We catched RED ! It's another full rated movie , 10/10 . Retired Extremely Dangerous ;) it's worth watching . You should catch it ! Before that had dinner at Wendy's and played at the arcade since we still had time left before the movie starts . Aryxsha & I can't help but to laugh at the boys cause they were just so bloody epic when they played one of the games . Haha . After the movie Baby , Aryxsha & I cabbed home , Baby slept over again . Then my Sunday was spent as mentioned above .

Oh yea , I'm kinda disappointed cause my tickets for USS is replaced with movie tickets instead . Reason was , the management couldn't get my tickets cause system was down . But from the way I see it , it's more of they're too busy to think about the tickets . All they want is results but didn't really spared some thoughts & I'm sure my Novena babies agrees with me on this . Oh wells , I am going to USS with Baby & myself . Perhaps with my lovely siblings too . And I need to start being thrifty and watch what I spend on . Baby , I need your help :(

I'll update real soon (:

Mood : Lazy .

Current Song : I Like That By Richard Vission & Static Revenger .

It was only just a dream .

2010-11-07T03:18:00.009+08:00

" Predictability will kill a relationship , so surprise her constantly . " - Rev Run

November's great so far , I ended lovely October on a bright note with my lovely girls . So , last two Saturdays , 30th Oct . didn't get to meet Baby for R2TF at the beach , could've spent more time with him but he had work & partly cause , his feet was swelling which cause him to withdraw from the competition , poor baby . But he had substitutes & I hope the boys did him proud . Anws as mentioned , went for Trick Or Treating at the American Estates at Woodgrove with Asha , Sheeq & Sherry . Well , it would've been more fun if Marissa was around but she couldn't make it . So we got there a little later in the evening but we still got candies & of course we took massive shots with our costumes together with the other ghouls who were there , hehe . Don't bother asking what I went as , just visit Sheeq's blog & you'll know ;) Oh yea before the Halloween night , went allout shopping with Aryxsha . Thank you for all the stuffs kakak (:

A few days afterwhich . Finally , met my Baby after 2 weeks long . Yes , I know it's only 2 weeks but it kills cause before he started working , we always spend our time together like literally everyday . So yea , that explains . Anyhoo , did some catching up , then had dinner at Pizza Hut at JP . Chpx joined us a little later then afterwhich we headed home . The next following day , went out with Baby & Chpx tagged along . Headed to Velocity cause I wanted to show Baby the Puma Suede that I wanted , it's Baby Pink in colour . But Baby told me there's a slight defect with the shoe & he ended up not buying it for me , boohoo but nonetheless I'm a happy girl in the later (:

Booked tickets for Due Date , so while waiting for the movie , we killed time & had dinner at Pastamania then went for shoe shopping at the usual spots . Baby gotten the SB Dunks that I asked him to get & as for me , I've gotten the Dr. Marten Boots in Dark Blue Marine & one of the classics from Converse , the Red High Tops . Thank you Baby ! Hehehe , don't forget the other one that I want hehehe . Whaaaaaaaaat ? It's not everyday that I get what I want , I've never asked my Baby for anything , honest ! Hahaha . Okay , sidetracked much . So yea , after that we collected our tickets & went into the theaters straight . I swear to God , it's one of the best movies I've watched , and I'd rate it 10/10 . Yup , first for the year . The storyline was damn funny & I loved the fact that RZA - Wu was in it , his part & role was hilarious . Initially wanted to watch The Social Network but I heard from Efa that it's more of a smokescreen of Facebook & is only a good movie for those who really wanna know the story behind the success of Facebook . So , I'm glad we watched Due Date instead . Anws , I seriously do not know which movie to watch next , there's just soo many movies that I wanna watch this month , hmm .

Anyhoo , finally had a day out with Shi En , been long since I last met & worked with her . Had mad fun & I've also gotten myself the nail polishes from Ion Rubi , I love the colours ! As for Shi En she've gotten herself a couple of bags from F21 . Wanted to splurge a little more but I have to save up for ...... so yea . We had drinks from Gong Cha , I had Caramel Milk Tea as usual . Yup , I'm aware that the name of the shop is abit awkward but what the hell right ? Their drinks are off the hook , better than Koi's . You should try if you have not .

Anws last Saturday headed down to The Studio to make payments for our photoshoot & the photos . Sherry's boyfriend , Faiz drove us there & I had a pretty epic ride with Asha at the back seats , that silly woman . I'll upload the pictures real soon on FB ! Anyhoo , now I hafta wait patiently for my BB Curve to arrive cause I need to get mine changed cause apparently I happen to have the old software , so I asked Starhub to get it changed for me , hehehe . Thank you Aryxsha for accompanying me the other day eventhough we didn't get in line & mos def thank you for Wendy's . Ohhhhhh yea , I'm soooo in love with BB Torch but it's a bit too big for my tiny hands :(

So yea , I guess that's as far as I can recall how my weekends were . I'll update real soon . Meanwhile these are the shoes I've mentioned above . The pictures are only found here since I didn't upload them on Twitter . Good mornight readers , for more updates , follow me on Twitter ;)

The Nike SB Dunks , Baby gotten . Our personal favourite ;)

My Dr. Martens in Dark Blue Marine .

My Red High Top ; Converse .

Current Mood : Lethargic

Current Plug In : Just A Dream By Nelly ( Love this song ! )

You make me feel like I'm living a Teenage Dream .

2010-10-28T23:23:00.005+08:00

" Don't let your dirty past , destroy someone else's bright future . "

I just love the picture above cause it's one of those days where Baby would just randomly ask for my camera and start taking pictures , yup he don't really liked the idea of taking pictures but he do now and when he starts , he just makes me smile cause his smile is as pure as ever and I'm happy to see him smiling for / because of / with me . Now , that's three reasons in one . Awwwwww , diam lah . HAHAHAHAHA . Anyhoo , I am still pissed cause my blog looks so mundane and dull , it's been long since I last changed my blogskin and I sorta forgotten how to deal with all the codings and whatnots . Wait , I believe I've said that before in my previous entry -.- Gosh , I'm really not functioning today :/

Anyhoo , I'll be facing 3 most important dates this November and 1 in December . Special people , special dates . So you get the picture . And I gotta start saving ! Damnnnnnn , luckily I still have savings from last month's pay cause Baby & I were supposed to go BKK last month , tickets were already booked by Kak Liza but apparently the trip is postponed because Kak Liza couldn't come along to show us around so that maybe next time we could go with our circle of friends and not get lost in the foreign country . Since the tickets were given complimentary , we were cool with it . But oh wells , there's always a next time . Hopefully in the month of February or earlier , we could go there . Speaking of trips , Aryxsha asked me if I wanted to go to Denpasar in 2/3 months time , I totally loved the idea , but it's just that the monsoon season is coming in a few months time , I doubt it'll be a great idea cause it'll rain most of the time .

So maybe we'll go on that trip before school starts for me . I'm so eager to go on a trip cause Asha have been travelling alot with her family and told me alot of the beautiful places to go . One of which ; Phuket , which she just returned from 2 weeks ago . And ohhhhhh , how I wish I could go to Paris or London . Skip LA for now , it's wayyyyyy too expensive :/ but if I were given the chance to , I would and prolly meet Kim o' there ! Dangggggg . And with most of my friends returning from their holidays , I soo wanna get the hell out of SG for a trip too ! Maybe I should convert to a Full Timer and start saving for school expenses/materials and perhaps travel for a little while ;) I soo need a time out mannnnnnnnnnn .

Oh yea , October had been greattttttt . All in all , I love October . But wait , we're still left with 3 last days before November , hopefully these days are spent with life , laugh and love . Anws .... Tomorrow's last day of work before my off days . On Saturday am gonna hit the beach with my Baby , then the following day's Halloween . Am gonna go for the annual Trick or Treating at the usual place hopefully with the girls this time round . There will be alotta cute little eurasian babies in costumes and outgoing " neighbour ladies " with their tricky halloween mazes and godamnit , I love the candies that they give us . Trust me , it might sound so ..... but really , it's fun and you're in Singapore for god sake , it's something you gotta try ! Cause the atmosphere's perfect . Initially , wanted to head to Butter Fact. perhaps with Asha's sister and friends but I've got work the following day , so I'll stick to the alternative .

Speaking of Halloween , Aryxsha gotten me tickets to Night Safari 2 weeks ago but I couldn't come along since it falls on one of my working days . So she went with her boyfriend instead , I should've been there :( she told me it was fun ! But since I'm heading to the beach , I wanna go for Spooktecular as well ! It's placed at the same venue but I heard it's gonna be packed since the following day is a Sunday . We'll see . Hehehe , anws ..... I can finally hug my Budak Gumok tomorrow ! I missed my Baby soo much ! Hopefully he's not that beat to fetch me from work , looking forward for tomorrow ! I can't wait to see you , Silly ! <3

I think I'm hitting the sacks soon . Finally , I've blogged again . Perhaps I shall do it on a week basis or better yet , daily just like I used to . I'll update real soon . Goodnight readers , well if there's still any :p

Mood : Cheerful .

Current Song : Teenage Dream By Katy Perry (:

Seriously .

2010-10-21T23:15:00.001+08:00

" Love your haters . They're your biggest fans . Because they keep

on wasting time just to watch your every wrong move . " - Adel <3

Omg , it's been like , a month plus now since I last update my blog ? I wasn't aware that I am that busy pffffft and look at my tagboard , last tagged was in July . Fml , really . On a brighter note , atleast I am updating my blog now . I've soo much to say cause alotta things had happened , events and whatnots . But it's been a month plus or so and I doubt I remember most of it . Don't even start on movies ! I've only watched The Other Guys this month and that's that ! I'm movie deprived , godamnit . Anyhoo , ratings for it would be 9/10 . But no worries , my schedule's flexible next month , so I hope for great movies to come ;)

Anyhoo , celebrated Younger Brother's bornday by feasting at Seoul Garden , been aeons since I last ate there and gosh it feels like heavennnnnn but by the time we got home , I got hungry again . Yeaaaa , blame it on my metabolism . Oh yea , did I mentioned how Raya went for me ? Well basically it was pretty mundane . Only the first few days of Raya my family & I went visiting and the rest of the days I was working though I did took a few days off for Raya outings with my lovely girls and my babes from CO . Had fun eventhough it was only for a short while . I love my lovely ladies and my CO babes ! Anws am supposed to be heading to USS this coming Saturday but my SM , Tricia forgotten to do bookings for my ticket since I got it for free ! I scored for Mystery Shopper in the month of September , lol . So instead of going this Saturday , am going next month with Aryxsha , she promised she'll go with me , along with Younger Brother too , am still unsure if Baby's coming though :(

Oh yea , I've finally gotten my "Mob" tees ! And I'm loving it even though I don't really fancy printed tees , uhuh . For the label , I guess it's an exception ? Haha . And oh , they've got new kicks in Suede Blue . My favourite colour , so I showed the pictures of it to Liana & she loves it too ! Apparently we share the same taste for rebel labels and goods . So yea anws , gotten two of the tees . If I'm not wrong I've twitpic the tees , so do check them out there . Am waiting for the next season's collection so I could splurge , as usual online shopping baby . Next up RY as well , been longing to get them but I've always forgotten and end up spending my money on food instead or something else that I don't really need -.- Anws , am contemplating on courses in NAFA . I kinda need Kak Lyn's help with this but currently she's busy with work . Kinda miss her too though :/

You know what , I'll continue blogging some other days when I'm really not distracted . My mind is all over the place and the music that's playing is not much of a help at all too , so don't mind me cause I'm kinda frustrated with myself cause I've lost touch on how to blog properly , bloody fucking hell ! Well I know there's no guides to follow to blog since it's my own blog and my own say but still I feel like something's amissed and that I can't seem to blog the way I used to blog . Damnit , I should blog more often ! I can't even seem to change the bloody colour of my fonts . It says html errors , urgh fucked up much .

Mood : Frustrated .
Current Song : Again By Flyleaf .

Zazzzz .

2010-08-29T23:55:00.002+08:00

" You can't keep what you don't appreciate . "

So , Hip Hop Fest was a great one . Especially the Block Party the following day , they spinned some old school tracks and my all time inspiration ; The Allstars performed as well . Kim was down since she's having holidays from school back in LA , she was from her hometown in KL and then dropped by SG to catch the line ups since her boys performed that day as well . Had mad fun and it was also great to have some time spent around Joe Flizzow and the other emcees from the South , kudos to Kim . Well of course , My Homegirl & Baby was there as well and I had a great time with them too but how I wish Serenade & Lil Dope were there too . Before heading for the event on Saturday , Baby & I broke fast at Breeks , since I was craving for the food there . Afterwhich , met Shiqin and our ex-schoolmates while waiting for the show to start . It took sooooo long till it did , and by the time I was feeling soo lethargic already but the show put up was worth waiting .

Broke fast at the Flyer's Popeyes before the Block Party on Sunday with Baby , Ash , Ismul , Faque , One , Faiz , Abg An and Ian . Then along came Baby G as well , afterwhich headed to Marina Square to bowl , yes we bowled . And I swear to god it was one of my epic weekends where you can't just stop laughing at each other's epic expressions and funny random words , haha . So it was Team Deeranae , Zym , Oneski & Faque against Team Baby G , Ash and Ismul , the whole game was funny ! In the end , idk who which team won cause the boys went for another round while I went off earlier to meet my homegirl to meet Kim before the event starts . We came in time just to catch the Allstars perform then had our seats at the front row . After a while the boys' finished with bowling and headed down to the waterfront where we were . After the whole event , Kim introduced the Emcees from the South to Sheeq & I . Just said our hi's and bye's then the both of us were off . Initially planned to stay out but Dad wasn't in a good mood so Abg CA brought me and the boys , riding in his car afterwhich Abg CA & the boys sent me home . I swear to god , the ride was CRAZY ! And my tummy hurts so bad cause of all the laughing but it was a night to remember , definitely ! Pictures up on FB .

Anyhoo , spent my eve of Ramadhan with My Lovely Ladies ; Asha , Sherry & Shiqin at the Bottle Tree Park . Sadly , Marissa couldn't join us . We ate allout since the next day was the first day of fasting month , haha so typical -.- Took loads of pictures , did alot of catching ups and had our silly moments . I love you girls . Well , I hope the upcoming Iftar happens . Please . I miss us 5 . Anws , yesterday Babygirls iftar-ed at my place and I was a happy girl cause it's been soo long since we have a day together , all 4 of us . We had our bubble tea as usual and chilled at the Peak and had our catch up session . Afterwhich headed home and did the usual , went online of course . Had a great day with the girls (:

Anws , I know it's abit too late for movie ratings but I'm still gonna put it up anws . So I watched Inception , it was a great movie and I had to concentrate alot if not I don't get the movie , so yea I'd rate it 9/10 . Watched SALT and I'd rate it 8/10 , the ending was anti-climatic and it was too short for an action packed movie but other than that it was aight . Few days later , watched The Sorcerer's Apprentice and I'd rate it 8.5/10 , it was hilarious ! Watched The Last Airbender with Family & Baby , and the movie was bad maybe cause I prefer watching it in cartoon and that it was abit too short for a movie that everyone expects to be good . Plus the script was rather gay ? Lol . I'd rate it 6/10 . Oh yea , watched The Expendables on its first day and I swear to god , I was laughing like fuck . It's an hilarious movie and I simply love the movie cause it was action packed . But I'd rate it 9/10 cause of the same reason that it's too short for a good movie :( Watched Step Up 3D as well , their choreos are sick and of course I loved the labels they roc but the storyline is somewhat the same . But other than that alls good , I'd rate it 7.5/10 .

Well am gonna watch more upcoming movies , for more ratings , stay tuned to my Twitter . Cause I'll be updating it all day everyday . Oh yeaaaaa , my second pair of Pastry Fab Cookie came in yesterday and I'm damn contented , pictures up on Twitter since I upload it straight from my Blackberry , happy viewing(:

Update soon , till then .

Mood : Jubilant
Current Song : Just The Way You Are By Bruno Mars .

After soo long .

2010-07-30T07:51:00.015+08:00

" I'll never accept randomness as an excuse and you shouldn't take

my kindness as an advantage . "

Soo much for changing blogskins , haha . Well , that's partly the reason why I privatized my blog . Now if you ask me who I miss the most are my Girls above , as well as Sara and my bubble tea partner , Syasya . It's been hard for me cause lately my shifts are not that flexible for the girls and there are quite a few times I've bailed out on them . Really am sorry for that , darlings . We'll definitely go out soon but I can't promise when though :/ perhaps during the fasting month that's just around the corner .

Oh yea spent last Saturday at the Zoo and the airport . Mummy got staff complimentary passes to the Zoo , like every year , NUS celebrates Family Day and this year it's held at the Zoo , it's been long since I went there . Had KFC for lunch then head home to get some rest after the Zoo trip , but instead I went over to civic to accompany Shi En for early dinner at Civic while the rest stayed at home before the long ride to the airport . Camwhored on Shi En's MacBook for awhile and now I feel like owning one :/ Afterwhich I headed home cause Dad , Haidar & I wanna send Aryxsha & Mummy off for their shopping and leisure trip to KL .

Anyhoo , went for an award ceremony for SYF at SAM earlier last week and am happy to say that I've clinched a Silver for my artwork , if you're free , do drop by SAM to see my artwork on the 2nd level . I'm not sure whether the entrance for galleries are free or there's a need to pay . But do drop by if you can *smiles* . Anws watched Despicable Me and Predators on it's preview . I'd rate Despicable Me a 8/10 and Predators 6.5/10 . Watched Eclipse with Aryxsha and I'd rate it 6/10 ? It was abit boring , 'cept for the newborn vs. cullens and the pack scene . Then catched Ong Bak 3 with Aryxsha as well and it was abit disapointing cause some scenes just doesn't makes sense but anws I'd rate 5/10 . Few days later , catched Hot Tub Time Machine , it's a damn hilarious movie and I'd rate it 7.5/10 . Days later , catched The Crazies and it's a great thriller , I'd rate it 8.5/10 & yesterday catched Tekken and I'd rate it 7/10 cause the plot was kinda short cause it was only 93 minutes ? But the fighting scenes were awesome(:

Speaking of yesterday , went shopping with Aryxsha and Baby came along as well . Had our Hot and Spicy Ban-Mians at Banquet before heading to town to collect our tickets and of course to do some retail therapy . Heh heh . Went Zara , F21 , New Look and more places and copped alot of stuffs , afterwhich walked around for awhile then had dinner at Canele . The food's delicious and I most definitely love the desserts . Had macarons for take aways , then headed to Cineleisure to watch Tekken . I had fun yesterday and I loved yesterday all thanks to Aryxsha & Baby . Can't wait for next Saturday cause Aryxsha's going for a second round cause she can't seem to find the perfect bag and shoes for her .

Well yup , it's always been " after work , watch movie / dinner , then head home " for me . I hardly have the time to watch movies so I'd squeeze in time for it . That's the reason why I loved yesterday cause it was rather a relaxing day and of course I don't have work on that day as well haha . Anyhoo , am already planning to take up courses/classes at R! cause I totally am in love with Kate's choreo and I would love to learn & to shake things up after soo long . The opening for R! was great ! Eventhough I missed the performances put up by the instructors , I still had fun cause I got to meet the people I miss especially Daya ! I still miss her still cause we didn't get to talk much when we met . Aside that , went to Ash's chalet to celebrate his birthday , stayed overnight for the second night and I had fun . Oh yea , Kim's coming over to SG again (Y) hopefully could spend a night or two , welllllll let's pray I won't be busy :/ Anws as cliche as it sounds , I have soo much to say yet I can't recall to most of the events . So prolly I'll update soon ? Stick around . Oh yea , pictures up soon .

Till then , have a great day ahead readers .

Mood : Lethargic .

Current Song : Best Thing In The World By Mocca .

Just In .

2010-06-26T01:29:00.011+08:00

" What you said shows how much that you no longer care about how I feel . " - Anonymous .

Finally , 2 days off from work . It's only been 2 days but it feels like forever -.- my Thursday & Friday's wasted cause I did practically nothing but lazed around . Anws celebrated Mum's birthday as well as Father's Day on the same day , Mum's birthday was on the 19th and Father's Day was on the next day , well as usual , had the birthday cake and whatnots . I've not gotten anything for Mum yet but as for Dad , Mum bought him a humongous mug that says , " Bestest Daddy " I swear to god , that was the sweetest gift hahaha ! And little Naomi was the one who picked it out for Mum when they went out recently along with Aunty Zacke .

Well , Aryxsha surprised Mum & Dad at the wrong timing -.- younger brother wasn't around , Baby was sleeping and I was hardly awake too ! Silly woman , boohoo to us . But no worries there's always a next time my dear loved ones . On a brighter note , the cake was delicious . It was scrumptious and sinful cause the chocolate fudge was thick and sweeeeeeet ! Anyhoo , Baby & I watched Toy Story 3 in 3D not long ago , I'd rate it 7.5/10 . It's a funny movie . Well before that , watched Sara & the rest performed at The Cathay for SSF . Came with Sherry & Syasya , then along came Shiqin , met Feeqa there too . Afterwhich Baby wanted to meet up , to have dinner then walked around town together with Sherry and Shiqin .

Oh yea , went window shopping with Shi En after work last few days and I totally had fun ! She's getting herself a new Burberry classic purse & I'm getting one for myself too ( they're having crazy discounts okay ) but I'm still deciding cause I can't take my eyes off the Agnes B' patent purse . Well , it's not a want but rather a need cause my current purse lifespan's ending soon , lol . So yea , I can't wait for my pay to come , I've been working endlessly and I hope my pay , pays off . And I can't wait for the big days to come((:

I guess that's all for now , I'll update soonish & Baby , I know you hardly read my blog these days but I just wanna say that I love you soo much and that I miss you already . Not to mention , I miss my girls too especially Daya . Meet up with you girls soon , till then goodnight .

Mood : Ecstatic .

Current Song : We'll Be Alright By Travie McCoy .

All this while .

2010-06-24T01:06:00.002+08:00

These words , thank you Tumblr .

Dusty blog .

2010-06-13T00:26:00.008+08:00

" Don't get mad when a girl cares too much , worry when she starts not to give a fuck . "

I swear I don't know where to start . Been busy with work lately , well that explains why my blog is all empty without updates . Most of the time I'm working , sighs . But of course , on certain days I end work early so there's still room for such like movies and whatnots ( I still have a life , hello ) . Speaking of which , watched Shrek with the family on the 1st of June ( ratings : 7.5/10 ) & watched Nightmare On Elm Street with Baby on the 7th of June ( ratings : 9/10 ) , was supposed to watch it with Sara but we didn't in the end , so I watched it with Baby instead afterwhich he slept over since we watched it nearby home , been long since he did and Mum misses him . Well , I was happy to see Sara on the day she dropped by my workplace cause she got me by surprise weeeee . We had donuts over at Donuts Factory and did some catching up , maybe we'll have Wendy's the next time *winks* . Anyhoo , I wanna bring Baby out to the place I always wanted to bring him , hehehe(:

Oh yea , few days back on my day off , made time for the girls and a few of my ex-classmates . We went shisha-ing , had some drinks and bites while chilling out at Arab St. But sadly Falisha , Sherry & Ika had to leave earlier . Almost an hour later , Shiqin & I went off then headed back to my place , got changed and cabbed to Woodlands Waterfront since my family was there ( I went only cause there's food :P ) . It was already past 1am but still the place's packed with people . Oh wells , it's a new place . Was happy to meet cousin , Aefiq and the rest . Dozed off in the car otw home since I was soo tired and sleepyyyyyyyy . But nevertheless , had a great day(:

The rest of my days were spent at work or just short walks at town with Shi En , she's been a great company . Good thing we have things in common and we know each other friends too ! What a small world aye , haha . She got herself a pair of pretty shoes , while we were walking around town the other day and now I am so tempted to get a pair of shoes , it's been long since I splurged on shoes . I need to get the pair that I wanted . Hehe .

Well there's soooooo many things of which I would like to update but I'm like dazing right now and I can't recall most of the events , I need to get some rest mannnnnnnn . The rest of my updates are on Twitter ( always have been ) , other than that I'm done for now . Update some other days , later !

Mood : Sleepy & Dazing .

Current Song : Fu Gee La By The Fugees .

Change Is The Only Thing That's Constant .

2010-05-23T13:16:00.003+08:00

" Ive got a tight grip on reality ,

But I cant , let go of what's in front of me here ,

I know you're leaving in the morning, when you wake up ,

Leave me with some kind of proof , its not a dream . "

Short Update .

2010-05-17T16:15:00.010+08:00

" A true lover doesn't leave her man when he's serving the country . "

I am way beyond happy . Things are slowly looking up Alhamdulillah , but I still have to be patient no matter how things are . There's only 2 things in my mind that I wanna achieve fast . Because after that I'll be the happiest girl in the world . Oh yea , two days back , Baby & I watched The Losers with Chpx , Dillah & Nurul . I'd rate it 7.5 /10 , the movie's unpredictable and I loved it ! Watched IP Man 2 with Baby last Monday & I'd rate it 7 / 10 . Anyhoo , Mother's Day was celebrated at Uncle Fahmi's residence . I was happy to meet my cousins and the rest of course & oh , I totally loveeeeee Aunt Salmah's pastries and the big delicious cake that she baked for the mothers . Niceeeeeeee .

Hmm , I guess that's all , I've got soooooo many things to update on but I just can't seem to recall and it's because I've lost my drive to blog again . Sighs . Update soon .

Mood : Neutral .

Current Song : Hooked On You By JoJo .

Short Update .

2010-05-05T01:11:00.011+08:00

^ During RF Jam @ Scape after qualifying rounds . ^

Things aren't turning up the way they're supposed to be , well not exactly but I shouldn't be complaining at all but anw ... all the little things are pissing me off , slowly . Well , it's nothing personal it's just that I get ticked off easily than before and I tell you it's like having pms almost everyday whereby everything else is such a prick to me . Though I really am soo sorry for those who were affected by it especially my loved ones . So yea as I was saying , it's frustrating cause I'm still in need of a fucking job . A proper one . The ones who called me up , are only for temporary of which working for less than a week -.- And I swear to God , these bullshits are getting on my very last nerves . I need a proper job before mid May , before Baby's big day , pronto ! I've sent my resumes all over , went for interviews but to no avail . Miraculously -.- I have an interview to go to next Monday & I hope I will get it . All thanks to Zuzu & Syima (:

Bottomline , I just fucking hate what's happening right now . But I have no reasons to be angry at God . This is just a test , a phase that I hafta go through . Whether I like or not , I still hafta face it and solving it . And to my dear Baby , I'm really sorry for not being able to support you in certain ways and that I've been so paranoid & not myself these days , I really feel bad about it but I hope you understand what I'm going through . With myself money strapped , things are hard to get done . Gosh , it's been awhile since I've said this but I guess I'm totally broke right now . And oh , Macdonalds still owes me money and they're 3 days late ! Yes , how ironic . Oh yea , for those who owes people money , make sure you don't make them wait and better pay up . If you know you can't pay back , you shouldn't have borrowed in the first place . I'm just saying in general .

Anyhoo , I've cut my hair above shoulder length but it's growing fast and now my hair's longer than how it was two weeks ago . Now I'm soo tempted to cut it shorter =/ hmm . Well I guess that's all for now , I'll update soon . Good mornight .

Mood : Agitated & Sleepy .
Current Song : Nothing On You By B.O.B Featuring Bruno Mars .

Sweet like candy .

2010-04-17T11:47:00.008+08:00

Received a text from Baby rightafter he cabbed to work from my place ..

Baby : Baby baby ! Alamak ... I tertinggal barang i laaa ..

Me : Alamak ! What barang syg ?

Baby : My love ... Heheheee ..

The reason why I love you Baby . Haha , he's soo cute and sweet laa . Look at the doodles he doodled for me ! He says that there's more that he drew for me and he says he likes the purple cat above . Aku geram , haha . Okay , dah tu je :D

Back .

2010-04-17T06:43:00.014+08:00

" Because the truth is , guys are intimidated by strong independant girls . "

It's been awhile since I've updated my blog , as usual I don't know where to start . Hmm , been out past few days , oh wells there's nothing much to do here and there so yea . Just yesterday Baby & I went to town to catch Kick Ass , well the movie was kickass . I'd rate it 9/10 , it's a movie worth watching and I soo love Hit Girl's role , she's way too awesome for an eleven year old ! Haha . Loved yesterday cept' the fact that it rained halfway while we were otw to town and I was wearing a freaking dress -.- Damn , it's been long since I wore one haha . So Baby & I had our lovely macarons from Canele and then off to Far East to walk around for awhile and there at Flow bumped into Shidy and friends . It's been long since I went to that shop and erm ... big change ? Yea ... Figure that out . Though I love the new girl , she's soo friendly . Haha .

A day before yesterday went out with Aryxsha to town since she's caught up with work she've got no time for me or even head out , so decided to go out with her yesterday and she bought us a make up product from Bella Pierre which costs $200 , it's originated from the UK , and best of all it's pure minerals ; the foundations , the blush powder , the bronzer . The set consist of brushes too , good ones . I didn't wanted it at first but it's an offer not to be missed , that's what Aryxsha said . Thank you sis ! Few pictures of it up on FB . Before town headed to Tanjong Pagar to settle some stuffs , then had Subway for lunch around the area afterwhich headed to town . And again , Aryxsha & I had our macarons at Canele after dinner at Mac . Had my cinnamon melts again . Hehe , yes yes it sucks when you have high metabolism cause all you do is eat , eat , eat . Not eat exactly , rather you just need something to munch on , sounds nicer that way haha ! Otw home bumped into Kstarr & Richard . Exchanged greetings then headed to the mrt station to head home .

The night before had Pizza Hut with family & Baby . Home delivered , cause we were lazy to walk to cwp just to eat lol . It's been a food galore for me , all I do is eat . Haha . Speaking of which , had a date with Girlfriends last Thursday cause we wanted to have an outing before school starts for the girls , I'm starting school a little later , the reason why I'm soo free and easy lol . Sadly , Shiqin couldn't join us but don't worry love . We'll have an outing soon okay ? I miss you girls already . So we had our lunch at Eighteen Chefs , the food's delicious . I'd go there again sometimes , can't wait ! After lunch walked around city area , then Ira left followed by Ika . Leaving me with Sherry , we had dinner at Mac . Had my cinnamon melts yum ! Haha but the sweetness ...... Haha .

Few days afterwhich , Baby & I catched REC 2 . I'd rate it 8/10 . It's totally sick and gross in a good way haha . First few parts I wanted to cover my face cause of all the suspense but thought that it'll be a waste . So Baby & I watched it with eyes opened all the way , fucking sickkkkkkkk . Come to think of it , we were soo silly but I had fun watching it . Then few days after catched Diary Of A Wimpy Kid and I'd rate 7.5 /10 . It's a must watch movie too , fucking funny . Haha . It's been a moviemania for Baby & I , almost everyday heading down to the cinemas . Haha .

Just last Saturday catched How To Train A Dragon again with Baby , Dillah & the boys . We were from the Fuyo Bboy Comp at SMU . I was supposed to be at Padang for R16 but I had to go to work to cover for a colleague , at the very last minute . I hate people who make last minute changes . Please eh . Thanks to that I had to miss out on Zetty's chalet to celebrate her legalization . So since I was at town met Baby after work . I miss Zetty and the others though , hope to chill soon to relish the good old times ;)

Oh my , I've been missing alot of people already , few of which , Daya , Sara , Kak Nisya , Baby Esha , and my ex-classmates . Hope to slum soon people . Sighs . As for Miss Syasya , yknow what it is , text me when you're up for a catch up . Rumah dah dekat nie , haha . All you need to do is to reply hehe . Okay , I guess that's it for now , update soon . I hope so , haha . Have a great weekend people ! Other than that , most updates on my Twitter . So follow me ;)

Mood : Ecstatic .

Current Song : I Wanna Rock By Snoop Dogg .

If you insist , so will I .

2010-04-02T13:09:00.005+08:00

" Some people are just phony , nosey cause they're lonely . "

I don't know where to start actually but things are looking up . Past few days had been out and about . My mistake , not only for the past few days , almost everyday -.- I'm sick and tired of sitting at home practically doing nothing . I'm supposed to be working by now but I guess I'll just wait for the school holidays to end , so that there's much more job vacancies cause currently I see students working everywhere . Syasya & a friend of mine is helping me out with Uniqlo . Yes , imagine all the months I've been waiting . But of course I do have other frequent jobs , though I'm quitting soon cause I don't see a point working twice or thrice in a month . So yea that explains why I'm out most of the time . Tsk . Well , at the same time waiting for calls cause I went for lots of interviews lately .

On a brighter note , I am hired . For a weekend job though -.- but still Alhamdullillah . Ben & Jerry's isn't that bad and the pay is good too . And oh , I'm still contemplating on whether I should work with Baby's sister , Kak Liza . Cause she offered me a job position of being her Personal Assistant for a business overseas trip to Japan & Korea and I'll be paid in USD . My parents are still deciding whether I'm allowed to cause it's a great opportunity given . But thing is , I don't think I can survive there , I'll definitely get home sick during those monthsss and I'll miss my loved ones , sighs :(

Anyhoo watched How To Train A Dragon ( 3D ) with my family last weekend . It's a movie worth watching in 3D . The dragons are soo cute laa , like cats lol . I'd rated 3.5/5 . And I've also watched Invictus , well it's a rather draggy cause it has alot of talking in it but I find it inspiring . I'd rate 2.5/5 . Next up , Clash Of The Titans in 3D . I'm watching it tomorrow with Aryxsha since Baby already watched it with Azri . Boohoo . Haha . I can't wait .

Anws , went for Danceworks @ Scape for the Open Category last Saturday with Baby . It was ... okay . I only stayed for Ika's , Daya's & Lil Nutz's performance cause it was bloody scorching hot ! Well luckily we bought Yami Yoghurt first , Baby finished the first one I bought for us and then he bought another one because he loved it , haha soo cute laa he . I didn't wanted to walk around too much as it was hot , but Baby had to drag me to 313 to get another round of YY , silly boy . Ours were both in medium sizes , which is kinda big & topped with Fruitty Pebbles and frozen fruits . Sadly Boysenberry flavour wasn't available , so we took Blueberry for the first and the secondth time Baby tried Rambutan -.- well it tasted okay . Baby was eating the yoghurt quietly when suddenly he told me he likes YY than Frolicks cause Frolicks' melts faster than YY . Soo cute yknow he when he was trying to explain to me ! Haha . I love you laa ! Well as for me I love both(:

So yea afterwhich headed to 313 for lunch along with Sherry , Ira & Tasha . Then walked around town , cause Baby was searching for some things , afterwhich headed to Taka met up with the boys again , had dinner . Then off to the STS event ; met Sara & Lala there , but me and Baby didn't stayed long though . Cause we felt agitated as it was totally crowded . Plus it was kinda hot too . I've got loads to say but can't recall most of it -.- Well I guess that's about it now , I'll be bubble tea-ing with Syasya & Shiqin later . Update soon ! (:

Mood : Restless .
Current Song : Hard By Rihanna .

Let It Out .

2010-03-25T23:40:00.009+08:00

" I'm not trying to make you look like the bad person , but what
you did is something I just won't do . "

Now I'm not in a mood to blog happily at all , shit just happens & of all the people I am the one who's facing it . Fuck that . I just gotta be real patient , cause pain is just a simple compromise . I won't let people like you bring me down , you're doing so cause of the fact that I am ahead of what you are . I'll take it as compliment that you tryna be like me or outdo me . I used to think that what's happening is just plain coincidence but come to think of it , it's more than thrice that this had happened . It's a total bullshit if it's called coincidence now . Sighs . Note that since day one , I've been suffering because of an ungrateful and cold person like you . I was assumed unreasonably , when I am innocent . What you were back then made an impact to me now , It's all because of you . But I gotta tell myself that this is just a test from god and I have to accept that . Well as for now , I am not giving in for the sake of giving in but it's because my heart can only take in a micro hatred & I am doing what's best . To add in to it , you're not worth my fight . Not at all . Run along now , I had enough . Thank you for your stalking attention .

& to a sister , I'm not mad at you nor furious or avoiding you if you think I am . I'm just confused of what's going now . And perhaps it'll be better if we talk things out asap cause I know that you & I wanna get this over and done with and resume with our norms . Somehow waiting just makes me uneasy and with you uncontactable these days makes me feel that I am neglecting you . Tell me what's up , cause I feel like I'm left hanging .

Nothing Much .

2010-03-20T22:59:00.006+08:00

" Pain is just a simple compromise . "

That's Baby Saiesha , and oh gosh I miss her already . Baby simply love this picture cause Esha's just soo cute hehe . Anyhoo , last week watched Alice In Wonderland . Awesome movie ! I just love Johnny Depp & The Chesire Cat ! Teehee . Aside that , watched Cop Out with Baby just now and it was fucking funny . Contemplated between Cop Out & Diary Of A Wimpy Kid but in the end , Cop Out it was . I'd rate a full 5 for both , they're a must watch movies . Oh yea , sleptover Baby's house yesterday . Supposed to go to his family chalet as I was invited but I was too tired cause I just got back from work . Surprisingly Dad was in a good mood . So yea , that explains . Anyhoo , I don't know where I've place my maryjanes . I love those maryjanes of mine . Saddening . But nevermind I'll get new ones . Was about to wear them the other day when I realise I don't have them with me . Sighs . Hmm , I guess that's about it for now . I'll updates soonish , goodnight .

Mood : Tired .

Current Song : Pyramid By Charice & Iyaz .

Just In .

2010-03-15T19:03:00.007+08:00

" You are the only exception . "

So yea , birthday boy got his cake but not his present YET *winks* I wanna thank everyone for the help , be it the surprise , the wishes and whatnots *smiles* I really appreciate your help , really . Baby was blushing when the boys sang him a birthday song when I came in with the cake , hehe . He was sitting silently and smiled all the way ahaha , then he blushed . Aww , how cute . I guess he really didn't expect the surprise . I didn't take lots of pictures though , heh . So yea , made a really nice handmade card for him , yes I know self-proclaim but whatever , it is nice cause I made it haha . You should have seen it , well I should have taken pictures of it , but sadly I was rushing like fuck cause I was already late to be at TJCC . In the card , there's all the wishes from all his close ones . I hope you love the card Baby(:

& oh , Shiqin & Hannah dropped by and luckily there's still slices of cakes left . The cake is oh sooooo sinful as Shiqin claimed . It's soo chocolatey , hehe . I hope ya'll love the cake . Slummed around for awhile , then Baby G came , afterwhich the girls afterwhich Memnoch came . But Hannah & Noch didn't stayed long , they had to be somewhere . I went home with Shiqin at around eleven plus to catch the last train , and gosh I really love that night , one of the happiest nights in 2010((:

The next day on the 12th , supposed to go longboarding with Ira & Shiqin but I overslept cause I was soo beat and shagged cause of the night before . So yea , headed out slightly in the afternoon instead , for RF Jam at Scape , it was a dope event . Siti came up to me , and talked for awhile . It's been long since I've seen her around as compared to last time I'll bump into her most of the time haha , was happy to see her . Well , expected Daya to come but she didn't , guess she was working , other than that didn't saw familiar faces around so I just stick with the boys , afterwhich Chpx came in the evening with Dillah , Nurul & Baby Saiesha ! Haha , I've been wanting to meet Esha and alas , I got to . So the tembam laa she ! Haha . Geram .

Anws , thanks to Abg CA for the dope pictures , I really love it . As for RF Jam at Zouk , I really had fun too , thanks to Daya & the boys . Anyhoo , the crews who battled was off the hook . I really loved the opening battle done by RF & 99 Flava , it was the ish . Aside this , I am really sorry for not making it for Miss Sharifah's wedding , thought of dropping by but time wasn't on my side . Hope those who went for it had a blast . I'm missing my girls already . Sighs . Oh yea , watched The Book Of Eli with Baby at AMK Hub the other night , ya'll should catch it . I'd rate it 3.5/5 (:

Well , I guess that's about it now . I'll update soonish and upload pictures up on FB soon . Till then , goodnight .

Mood : Dazing .

Current Song : The Only Exception By Paramore .

A Night To Remember .

2010-03-08T16:55:00.012+08:00

" We love you guys , we'll be back here . " - Hayley .

PARAMORE CONCERT , Kickass . Pictures are limited , cause I was busy jumping up and down , headbanging and screaming . Fuck , I feel gooooooooooooood . Cause I totally let my hair down and let loose . I didn't really gave a fuck of how messy I looked . And I guess Baby was shocked cause he didn't really expected that side of me , now that's rock and rolling \m/. Ahaha , he said I was jumping like jumping beans . Haha .

Paramore's my all time fav alternative band besides other genre . Been listening to them since their first album . I was kinda disappointed cause they played most of the new songs from Brand New Eyes , for their newer fans in Singapore but of course , I still sang along . Misery Business was their bestest set ! Brick By Boring Brick ( from 3rd album ) comes next . I swear to god , the crowd was kicking ! The next time Paramore comes to Singapore , I'll take up the standing pen instead ! The view from my seat was awesome too ! No complains man . Haha . So yea , they played Crushcrushcrush , Let This Go , Misery Business , Brick By Boring Brick , Pressure , That's What You Get , Ignorance , Decode , Let The Flames Begin , For A Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic , Only Exception & oh god , I can't recall the rest .

While waiting to be seated , texted Mimi . She got tix for standing pen ! I told her to take good care of herself , cause there's possibility people in the standing pen might mosh . But apparently they didn't really moshed , just a little swaying and whatnots . The moment Hayley came out Aryxsha & I jumped out of our seats , and stood infront and screamed at the top of our lungs haha . Lucky our seats were near the fence before A06 . Our seat's at T06 . 2 rows away . Met alot of people at the concert and after the concert . Athirah , Shaie & Bf , Ray and a few more familiar faces . Oh god , I can go on forever about the concert . Haha . Okay , moving on . Here's a sneak peek . I'll upload the rest of the pictures and videos on FB when I have the time to(:

The star for the night , Hayley Williams . Thought she'd be blonde since her latest video , Brick By Boring Brick . But for the concert she's back to her Flames . Orangey-yellowish . Haha . If there is such words , lol . Jeremy was smoking hot too , he wore red . Their new member Taylor's kinda cute though . Anws , I wanna thank Aryxsha once again for the tix as a birthday present & Baby for making time for the concert . I love you two(:

Okay , I guess that's all for today . I'll update soonish , have a nice day .

Mood : Mesmerized & Sexcited .
Current Song : Looking Up By Paramore .

Oh my Prada .

2010-03-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

" The people who deserves nothing , are handed everything . Life as it is . "

Soo much for updating a little later in the afternoon . It's almost 3rd of March now . Haha . Anws , got nothing much to update actually . Just that , Baby sleptover yesterday . And I am supposed to accompany Shiqin to somewhere but I woke up late -.- sorry babe . Anyhoo , watched a movie called , Pisau Cukur . I stereotyped the movie as the same as any other B movie but I was wrong . Got hooked on it after awhile I was watching it . Was too engrossed that I forgot to wake Baby up to watch the movie with me , heh . Love the script , hilarious .

Tomorrow going out in the morning with Aryxsha , getting my lenses done . Do something with my hair . Blahblahblah . Walk around for awhile , then head home since she's working afternoon shift tomorrow . Sighs . I'm bored . That's all , bye .

Mood : Baked
Current Song : Electric City By BEP .

Let Me Sleep .

2010-03-01T01:29:00.008+08:00

" For whatever , I just have to keep on keeping on and be strong in what may come . "

I can't sleep , my sleeping cycle has changed and it's getting on my nerves . Well , I've got things to keep me occupied while I'm slowly falling asleep . Currently am waiting for Youth In Revolt to load . Didn't wanna watch at first but I can't seem to sleep and it's getting boring by every minute . Aside this , I'm multi-tasking by editing pictures and of course waiting for the movie as well as munching on some junks , at this hour tsk . Anws , I don't really edit my pictures but since few weeks back , I explored the whole editor that has been downloaded since like forever -.- It has some cool functions so yea , edited some of the pictures and here it is ;

Those are few of the pictures . I really love the cellophone , monochrome and the distortions effects . Okay moving on ! Where my Bbygs , The 5s & Dopegirls at ?? Damnit , we need to go out some times . But I'll only be free after the March hols though , saddening . Will be busy with personal stuffs and whatnots . Furthermore a special day is coming . Okay , better be off now . My movie's waiting . Update again later , much later in the afternoon perhaps .

Goodnight now , peace .

Mood : Mundane
Current Song : Kiss N Tell By Ke$ha .

What's new .

2010-02-27T23:51:00.006+08:00

"You don't realise how someone is very important to you until you lose them. Love your
loved ones fruitfully now & not love them only when you know youre about to lose them."

Can't believe I'm missing Naughty By Nature @ Butter Factory . But Sheeq told me that Simone told her that it's for VIPs , well there are tickets selling but it's limited for the performance . Nevermind , hopefully there's other time . Anws , to my dear cousin , Jane . I know it's pretty late to wish you on my blog but I hope wishing you on FB is okay with you *sad face* I hope you had a great celebration . And oh , our trip to Africa for the wildlife still on ? ( inside joke ) Hehehehe :D

Anyhoo , gotten myself a new car . Hah , you wish -.- Let me rephrase that . Dad , gotten a new ride few weeks back . He's been planning for it since forever , so yea like finally , Alhamdulillah . Aside that , it's easier for transportation wise . But it's a weekend car though , here's some pictures .

I was watching Alvin & The Chipmunks while waiting for my parents and younger brother to be done with their Zohor prayers . I couldn't pray , was having . So had to wait outside , lol . Anws last week went out with Uncle Yat's family , Uncle Fahmi's family and mine to Changi Airport to have dinner at Popeyes . Had fun and all . Then the next day , went to Sheeq's place to play with Rawkus , broke into her house specifically hehe . Then had dinner again at Popeyes , lol . Afterwhich headed to Taman Jurong to meet Baby and the boys . After that , Baby went to my place to sleepover .

Moving on , I am totalllllllllllllllllly psyched for Paramore's concert ! A week left man but it wouldn't be the same cause Josh's not in , boohoo . And oh , was supposed to be dancing for danceworks this year but shit happens . Nonetheless , Ika's replaced me but I still feel bad cause I've rejected the opportunity , hmm . Oh yea , had an interview with Sentosa . They need part timers . My current job sucks , so yea thought I'd give it a try . Daya recommended me to it , thanks again babe(:

I guess that's all for now . Goodnight , peace .

Mood : Psyched .
Current Song : Mannequin By Katy Perry .

Don't Know What Title .

2010-02-15T16:09:00.006+08:00

" The best I ever had " - Baby(:

So Deezymphany didn't celebrated Valentine's Day yesterday , as we've already celebrated last year with the white roses , the gifts and a beautiful night out in town *smiles* . Yesterday would be the second Vday for us but we stayed in and played games instead , heh . Growing up with a Younger Brother , I'm used to most of the stuffs that guys do , like playing games and whatnots . So yea , I was the one who got stressed up just watching him play -.- haha , silly . Well , I was quite tired as I just got home from Changi as my Uncle held a bbq gathering there , when I got home in the morning , took a nap then off to Baby's place . After Baby's house , I had to be at Sembawang for my Aunt's bbq gathering . So yea .

Anws , apologies to birthday girl ; Inaa as I couldn't attend your party , I really am soo sorry . I was caught up with other plans . But I really hope you had a great fantabulous party dear . Aside this , I'm using a temporary number for now as the usual one is not in use for the meantime . Oh yea , last Thursday watched Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief nearby home with Baby. Lucky for me , I used to read about the greek mythology , so I understood better and oh , the movie was a blast . I'd give it a full , 5/5 . So catch it ! (:

After the movie , got home straight . Baby sleptover as we need to settle somethings the next day over at yck . So yea . After yck went to town as Baby wanted to get his long awaiting PS3 console . Boys ; game consoles after another haha . Aryxsha tagged along too . Had our fried mars bars and cheesy curry chix from Chippy's , walked around then off to home . Afterwhich , I meet my girls ; Sherry , Shiqin & Ika at civic , a little later in the evening . Afterwhich , Aphyik , Izzat , Hel , Memnoch and Feekee dropped by . Talked for awhile then went off . Hmm , I guess that's all for now . I'll update soon .

Have a nice day ahead , peace .

Mood : Lethargic
Current Song : Lose Control By Timbaland Featuring JoJo .

Spread The Love .

2010-02-14T23:24:00.004+08:00

I know I've uploaded this picture like alot of times but wtheck , it's one of my favourite . Anyhoo , I'd like to wish my homegirl , A Happy Legal Birthday ! && Oh , Happy Birthday to Inaa & Firwan too . Missed ya'll btw and to all Happy Valentine's Day(:

Mouthful Of Words .

2010-02-10T23:10:00.009+08:00

" True love doesn't just fill your heart , it overflows into your whole body and soul . "

Finally , I've gotten my phone changed . Gotten myself Blackberry Curve , wanted to get Blackberry Bold but it's a little much more expensive , so yea . I settled for BB Curve instead , though BB Bold would be nice *smiles* . I didn't wanted to take BB Curve in the first place cause it looks like some of the Nokia E-Series but I've never owned those qwerty phones before so it makes a difference for me , as I'm all about slide phones and sidekicks . Yup ;)

Anyhoo , last Saturday went to Vivo to apply for Full-Time @ Forever 21 .... What ? I'm in need of a new job , the current one calls me up like twice or thrice in a month , it's as good as not working , ya git ? Anws , headed down with Sherry then Baby came a little later . Walked around with my two loved ones , then Oneroc and Ismul came too . After lunch at BK , went Dhoby Ghaut ; The Cathay , as Baby wants to buy a new shirt and that's when Shiqin joined us . Before going off for STS at YP , we dropped by Meezah's workplace to meet her for awhile . At YP , happy to see the people I miss . Hanged around for awhile , watched the performance put up then Sherry , Shiqin & I went separate ways . I joined Baby & the Boys as well as Daya , wanted to play L4D2 but it was fully booked , so while waiting had late dinner at Rex . By the time it was getting late , so we skipped L4D2 and headed home .

The next day . Headed down to Skatepark as The Redbull Bboy Competition was held there . Ash & CA participated , although I wasn't there earlier , I heard they were good . In the midst of the competition I went to 313 which is just nearby , to meet Syasya as she wanted my opinion on the dress that she's planning to buy from Forever 21 . Sadly , the dress she wanted to show me can't be seen anywhere , so we ended up just walking around till I received a text from Baby to get back to Skatepark as he claims Mum asked for me . So yea rushed back , then headed to Cineleisure to have dinner at BK with Daya & Ash . Afterwhich chilled at Taka while waiting for CA & Lala to join us . While doing so , we laughed at some random Japanese Gameshow videos that Baby showed us , cute laa he . Haha . After slumming , headed home blahblahblah ..

Baby sleptover my place , then the next day followed him to Taman Jurong CC for break session . I loved that day , whereby everyone there made my day *smiles* . Was happy to finally meet Meera after soo long , but it was kinda awkward cause we didn't talked much but yea did a little catching up . Then Daya came a little later at night as she was from work . Went home with Oneroc and Faque since Baby wanted to sleepover G's house . Oh yea , E-in seriously reminds me of my younger brother . Ahaha .

& Oh oh , last Friday went over to Shiqin's place to meet Rawkus , her new kitten ! How small and adorable is he man ! Shiqin's been sucha great Mum for both Rawkus & Layla , they look soo healthy and fat , especially Layla . Geram yknow ! Hahahaha . Well yea , that's about it for now . I'll update soonish(:

Good night everyone , peace .

Mood : Zany
Current Song : Me & My Boyfriend By Mocca .

Short Update .

2010-02-05T02:47:00.006+08:00

" I ♥ You Baby "

Earlier on catched Santau with Meezah , it was an impromptu meet up actually . Well , the movie was worth watching , I liked the slight humour in the midst of the movie . I'd rate it 3/5 . Anws to Zetty , I thought I saw Indra's elder sister , one of the twins . Wanted to smile but not sure if she remembers me , it's been long since we met . Ahaha . I think it was Ira . So yea . After the movie , Sherry joined us , we grabbed some bites . Slummed at Civic then went home .

Anyhoo , yesterday went out with Baby & Chpx . Well , I miss Chpx , cause it's been long since I've seen him , I'm glad he's doing okay . Anws , we catched The Tooth Fairy , it was hilarious . I'd rate it 4.5/5 . While waiting for Baby at town , had my Yami Yoghurt , this time it's not Frolick , hehe yum ! Supposedly head down to Burberry for awhile but it was pretty late already cause the movie's starting , there goes my tags . Sighs . Never mind , there's always a next time . Anyhoo , I'm off to sleep now . I'm pretty beat . Tomorrow morning , Sheeq's house . Afternoon , the hospital with Baby & Chpx ; cause Chpx claimed he fractured his arm , if not , out with Baby & Wan .

Till then , I'll update soon . Goodnight , peace .

Mood : Sleepy
Current Song : Up Against The Wall By Wale .

You Should Shut The Fuck Up Instead .

2010-02-02T16:16:00.006+08:00

I can't believe I took pictures with you . I can't believe you said nice things to me . I can't believe we were almost hanging out . I can't believe you're such a two face . Girl , atleast make one of it pretty . Seriously , like omg . And one more thing , stop checking up on me and my life . Your IP address is filling my tracker , urgh . And I heard you once go around telling people about me ? Ahaha , you think you're soo good aye ? Haha . Mirror yourself first . Bitch , please do . I should've listened to my loved ones especially , my Baby . Well , I did good deeds for you but I guess you're just ungrateful . No , you ARE ungrateful . Hah . And you talk too much , please . How old are you again ? Pfffttt .

Mood : Satisfied
Current Song : Yet Another Haters' Anthem For You .

I've got a feeling .

2010-02-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

" Who matters , are those who never left your side . "

Got a little cranky today and my whole family became victims . I'm really really sorry about that & because of what happened , Baby called me hot-tempered , cause when he called to check on me , I was still pissed . Tsktsk , Nad Nad . Anyhoo , earlier on went out with Syasya to Tampines , she wanted to take her Dslr then had dinner at Mac afterwhich left for home . Oh yea , I just found out that there's a freaking tiny hole in my Bershka top . Idk how the hell it happened but it's one of my favourite tops . Buuuuuuuuut , I guess now I have a reason to splurge again haha .

Tomorrow's my parents anniversary and we're dining out with the whole family along with Baby and Aryxsha's boyfriend . I'm not sure where we're dining out at but the place better be good , ahaha . I'm choosy , I know . And I hope , Mum & Dad would love the presents , we siblings got out for them . I guess we're going home after dinner , I can assure that everybody's going to be tired since they will be back from work for dinner . Baby's sleeping over again tomorrow since he said he's lazy to go home . Haha , lazybum tau this boy . Oh yea , on Wednesday , will be heading to Shiqin's place to see Rawkus ( her new kitten ) , then spent the time with the girls as they'll be heading there too(:

Homegirl , you feeling the vibe ? I can't wait . A step closer(:
I guess that's all for now . Btw , Hello Fabulous February ;)
Good night , peace .

Mood : Neutral
Current Song : Pass Out By Chris Brown Featuring Eva Simmons .

Tired .

2010-01-31T15:39:00.006+08:00

" Treat people as you would like to be treated , karma's only a bitch if you are . "

Event yesterday was great only that it was abit crowded . Jin told me the stage is small and when I got there , I was like damn . It is small . Well , I was not in the mood during the first half of the event , cause I felt agitated . Anws , before heading off to Alleybar , dropped by YP to catch the performance put up by STS . I was very happy indeed to meet Sara , Shahila , Kae , Efa and all the rest . It's been long , too long . Saw homeboy , Wan Faris and his friend Faris otw to town too . Made new friends ; Fye , Nana & Dorothy too .

I've got not much to update for today actually . I'm all dazed up and sleepy . Well , I'll be off to Nanny's house later cause I asked Mama to help me trim my hair since she's not working today . I'm just gonna trim and layer it abit . Am not gonna cut my hair before the photoshoot , it'll be darn saddening . Haha . Everybody's asking me to keep my long hair , only Baby asked me to cut it short . I want to cut it short too but just not yet . Cause my homegirl told me , I've been keeping my long hair for too long , if I wanna make a difference , make it tremendous ;)

Till then , I'll update soon . Anws , someone's been reading my archives huh ? Wonder who , haha . Anyhoo , that's my younger cousin , macam gangster kecik haha . Okay , bye .

Mood : Sleepy
Current Song : Silly Boy By Eva Simmons .

& Again , I Miss You .

2010-01-29T23:55:00.006+08:00

" You may hold my hand for a while , but you hold my heart forever. "

I don't know what I've been feeling lately . Like my homegirl said , " Its like you're bound to have negativities when there's sooo much positivity around you . " For a moment I'm sooo fucking happy then I'll start to feel numb . Don't ask me why , maybe it's because things haven't been going the way it's supposed to be . Sighs . Hope things will get better .

So yea , made alot of calls for job vacancies and got myself some job interviews . Earlier on , was the first interview but I had to postpone it . It's all the way at Vivocity , I took a straight bus there but along the way my phone was being a bitch and I couldn't plug in to my playlist . And knowing myself , I'll tend to get motion sick , which I bloodyfuck hate soo much , I alighted before destination . Took a seat at the bus stop for awhile then texted Baby to ask whether he's at station or fire post as he's working today . And coincidently he said that he's at the fire post which was just a few blocks away . Made my way there eventhough I knew I couldn't walk properly as I felt really light .

Upon seeing Baby , I hugged him tightly and he was soo cute laa . He calmed me down for abit , asked me cute questions trying to make me feel better . Thank you soo much , Syg . Well , I'm glad that I alighted at the right bus stop . If not , I don't know what would have happened . Sighs . Moving on , few days back , made friends with Baby's cousin . Had fun at RP afterwhich chilled by Titanic for awhile then headed home . Adi , Ahn & Mas was there too , thought of going over to say hi or something but I was with Baby and his friends . Anws , tomorrow will be heading to Alleybar with Will's Invasion ( Nas & Jin ) & Sheeq . And Baby's going for awhile afterwhich he'll chill with Ash for the night . I hope tomorrow's event would be awesome . Thats about it now , update soonish .

Anws Baby , I love you plenty . Okay good night , peace .

Mood : Happy / Okay okay :D
Current Song : I Love You By Chris Brown Featuring Ester Dean .

2010-01-26T08:30:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday , Aefiq .

Hope you have a great celebration ahead & must have a chillout session with the cousins soon ! Haha . Last long with your girlfriend and all the best for your future endeavour . And a Happy Sexy Birthday to Aunty Ita too (:

That's Legal .

2010-01-25T01:11:00.011+08:00

" Don't be soo quick to judge me , you'll only see what I choose to show . "

I am a decade and eight now . That's legal but still I 'm young , haha . First and foremost , I wanna thank all of those who had wished me on my birthday , be it through text , on FB / Twitter / Blogger , in person or through calls . I really appreciate it all , if I could , I wanna state down names but I'm afraid if I'd miss out some , you know how I am , very particular . Heh . Once again , thank you all (:

Moving on . Initially , Baby wanted to take me out but he fell really really sick , boohoo . Get well soon my dear . And Aryxsha actually planned a night out with me and some of the girls to Zouk for my legalization ? Haha . But I chose not to because personally I think that it's rather cliche to celebrate your 18th at a club . C'mon , it's not only that I'm eighteen only for a day right ? I still have time , so I'd rather be easy on it . If yknow what I mean . So yea , my 18th was a blissful one indeed . Celebrated it with my close relatives and family instead , as last year's was celebrated with my lovely friends . Since my cute nenek just got discharged from the hospital , my whole family wanted to visit her at Jane's . I went along with the plan since Baby was sick . And there , the surprise celebration was held . I was just speechless the whole time . Especially the part when the presents came in (:

Mum & Aryxsha got me a necklace with a pearl + 3 cut diamond pendant from Citigems and I totally love it . And again , Mum got me two Boho bags from Phuket , it's Pink & Orange in colour . Well as of for Dad , he told me it'll be a belated one , hehe I wonder what it is . A new notebook ? Heh , I need it when school starts yknow . Or perhaps a new phone ? Mine's like half dead already , hehe . Okay okay , stop dreaming already Nad . Heh . Well the best part of all the presents is that , ARYXSHA GOT ME TICKETS TO PARAMORE LIVE IN SG ! I know , shut up . I told her I wanted to go when I first heard that they're coming , few months back . She then brought me to Sistic earlier on and purchased the tickets for herself , for Baby & I . She gotten us good seats and I'm sooooo totally happy . I kept saying to thank you to her , but still thank you is not enough . Of course I said thank you to Mum too , and Dad for the celebration , hehe .

Pictures of the day plus the presents , will be up soon on FB ! Anyhoo , I had a great catch up session with Jane & Dila . Though Jamie wasn't there , she had to go to work . Wished she was there too , I miss my cousins . Jane was being totally gay just now but that's just us , we're soo random . Then came Shasha , I miss her too . Most of my cousins were over at Jane's to visit our cute nenek that includes our Aunty from KL who came to visit too . That's when Dad decided to celebrate there . All in all , I had a great birthday with my loved ones . Looking forward for next year's though , hehe . I am one happy girl now , heh . That's all for now .

Oh yea , it's sucky how I hafta use Youtube for my blog song , hafta press play then it'll play . I gotta create a better playlist soon or perhaps get some help from Jane , she's good at it . Okay bye .

Goodnight , peace .

Mood : Euphoric .
Current Song : Take It Off By Ke$ha .

What Now .

2010-01-23T18:46:00.009+08:00

" Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile . "

Finally updating . Been too busy that I hardly touched Tumblr , Blogger , Formspring or Twitter . I've been on Facebook the whole time . There's been alot of outings and events that I simply am lazy to update here . To fill the gap , do check out my photo albums on Facebook . Pictures during the Bridal Photoshoot , Girls Day Out , Baby's Sleepover , and etc .

Well , results was kinda disappointing . Am currently waiting for JPSAE results , at the same time applied for ITE . If not I'll be continuing school at NAFA for Diploma In Fashion Studies next year . Kak Lyn told me everything about her years with NAFA in Fashion Studies , and since then I felt motivated . Thank you ! And of course , if I do pursue my studies in NAFA , I hafta start doing my portfolio and of course save my own moolahs for it . That'll take the whole year , the reason why I wanna continue my studies next year , if I didn't get selected for JPSAE and if I didn't get the course that I want in Higher Nitec courses in ITE . Wish me luck ! :D

Well , I'm supposed to be out at town to chill with my bbyg , Syasya but plans changed because my card's not with me . Damnit . I miss Syasya and the rest of the bbygs . And I know this is random but I miss Hetty too ! Anyhoo , went out with the girls at our isolated hangout yesterday and we totally had fun . The day just gets better when my girls are around . The sweet part of the day was when they surprised me with an advance birthday celebration . And damn , was I speechless & I was totally caught off guard of course . All in all , I had fun yesterday . We took alot of pictures and it's up on FB . You girls made my day , thank you once again , I love ya'll ! Aside this , had a mini celebration at home for Dad's birthday . And boy , was he shocked when he received the presents that the whole family bought for him . Haha . Anws , today's someone's birthday too ! Happy Legal Birthday Faris !

Mood : Don't Know What To Feel Also .
Current Song : Selfish By Asia Cruz

All's Been Good .

2009-12-27T18:10:00.008+08:00

"A woman brought you into this world , so you have no right to disrespect one ."

So , I watched Avatar on Christmas Day with Baby . It's a great movie , I'd rate 5/5 . Ya'll should catch it . Haha . Now , I'm not sure if my family's catching Alvin & The Chipmunks 2 , Monday midnight , which is tomorrow , duhh lol . It's been long since we have a day out together with all our family members present . Usually it's either me or Aryxsha who's not present , lol . But nevertheless I always love to dine out with my family and catch movies after that . Oh yea , my bondings with Dad are getting better , it's not as how it was past years , things have changed and I'm glad .

Anyhoo , I am soo touched by how Mike proposed to Xiaxue . Yes , proposed . Mike had planned it all up and gosh , I almost teared up while watching the proposal video towards the end . He's such a sweet guy & Xiaxue's a lucky girl . Don't mind me blogging about this , I'm just an avid reader of her blog . Not that I'm a fan or something but I just find her posts influential & funny in some ways . Lol . Especially about those silly Numbnuts & Chick VS Dick . Okay okay enough of those . Moving on , going out with Baby tomorrow to town , checking out some shops at Paragon .

Oh yea , I know this is kinky but wtheck , I'm not sure if I can attend to Sherry's Slumber Party Cum Lingerie/Ladies Night on New Year's Eve ; dresscode : Lingerie with our PJ's of course . I know , how cute lol . I just can't decide , Mum allows me to go to any one of which I've mentioned to her of where I would be at , but the tough part is Dad . Anws , I am soo contented because I've gotten myself the Rimmel London eye makeup and a lipgloss from Majolica Majorca and some minerals from Maybeline . I'm product-friendly , therefore I don't just stick to one product , heheh . Speaking of make up , I'm not getting myself made up for the Bridal thingy on the 3oth , instead I hafta try the dresses on . On the 13th of January 2010 , is then the real thing but I'm not sure if it's confirmed yet though .

Anws , I've heard from alot of people that O Level results is commencing on the 12th of January ? Mrs Seah told me that it's in mid January , hopefully it is right that it's on the 12th . Oh yea , congrats to Syasya & Shab for continueing to Secondary 5 , next year . All the best yea , that's all for now , I'll update real soon , well hopefully , lol . Meanwhile , Happy New Year to all , 2010's definitely a better year , Insya Allah (:

& Oh Oh Oh ! I'm soooo looking forward for SG Idol tonight ! NO , not because of the competition but it's because Charice Pempengco is performing ! The 16 Year old who sings with her heart and soul & thanks to Oprah Winfrey , her dream came true to perform with Celine Dion , awwwww . Okay so yea . Haha ! Prepare for a hair raising performance ;)

Last but not least , Happy 17th Birthday To My Bbyg , Syafeeqa(:

Mood : Happy & Tangy ? Lol .
Current Song : Safe With Me By JoJo

Love Changes , Friends End Up Being Strangers .

2009-12-23T00:30:00.026+08:00

" Being nice to someone you dislike doesn't mean you're fake .
It means you're mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them . "

The people you used to know , whom you're close with , turns their back on you because of a stupid or a minor mistake . They give you a cold shoulder and doubt you . They even might treat you the same as other strangers . Yea , I felt this way before and still am somehow , just because I went head over heels for the guy I love deeply . Yes . Even loving someone could be like a sin to others . But yea . Everything is changing , and it's time for each and everyone of us to move on , for life has to keep on going . Well as for me , I'm just trying to understand the things in what life could give , take in a little , appreciate & anticipate . And oh , there's alot of definition to the title of this post , so yea . Mine's different , what about yours ?

Moving on , Sherry & I agreed to become the models for the bridal makeover for Hannah's aunt , Aunty Nona . It was a last minute thing actually , I asked Sherry to have a go first today since Baby wants to see me being made over , next week . So yea , Sherry already got an image of how she'll look like on her wedding day . Aunty Nona & Aunty Sha said she looked like Annabelle Francis . Cool right , I know . Well , at certain angles , Sherry looked like Katy Perry instead cause of her beautiful eyes *smiles* . Big ups to Hannah for recommending & Sherry for coming . Pictures up on FB soon .

On Saturday , supposed to watch Avatar with the boys but the tickets were selling fast and sold out , the same goes for the other shows that we wanted to watch . Saddening huh ? But alls good when the boys wanted to play L4D2 and oh , I played too , lol . Well , it wasn't my first time playing it . Dude , I can still remember the first time I played L4D in mid February this year , plain epic . But I had fun , heheh . On Sunday , went out with Baby & Kak Liza to have some fresh air for awhile after Baby changed his hp . Met them at Bugis . Damn , it's been long since I stepped my foot there , lol . Gotten some stuffs then head back to Baby's house then afterwhich I headed home after watching some movies . Oh yea , ya'll should catch Perfect Getaway . The movie's sic . Oh yea , don't mind the old songs being played on my blog , old they might be but still they're few of my favourites ;)

&& oh , Baby was being soo cute when he sang me , The Best I Ever Had By Drake * smiles * heeeee . Anws , I wanna wish Ira Falisha & Hetty Hazwani a Happy Birthday ! Well , I guess that's about it now , I'll update when I have the time too . Good night , peace .

Mood : Neutral
Current Song : Haters Anthem By Jean Grae .

Fun In The Sun .

2009-12-14T00:30:00.005+08:00

Accompanied this Wolvy , to check out the ” abandoned ” Left Foot. Sadly , the shop had moved but alls good . Afterwhich went impromptu shopping , Baby bought few tops from Zara , jeans from Uniqlo & berms from F& S. I didn’t bought anything though cause I bought tops from Bershka & Pull And Bear yesterday *squeals* LOL . But I totally had fun picking out stuffs for Baby *big grins* . Anws , Aryxsha bought new tops and dresses from Cotton On , so yaay . More clothes , heheh . Anws I wore something different today , not the usual me , seriously . Initially wanted to wear heels but I rushed out of the house this morning , so yea .

Brought Baby all over town . Since it’s been long that he went to town , I brought him to the new malls . It was a fun trip , we had fun and we were soo happy today haha :D Before meeting up with Baby , went window shopping alone to my favourite places and yes , I melt at the sight of River Island ; I only love the bags and accessories , heh . Pay day , come fast HAHA . Oh yea , was approached by Toni & Guy during work to highlight my hair . But they still haven’t called back -.- great . I soo need to do something about my hair , but one thing I won’t do is dyeing it , never . Highlights are okay but soo long as I still have my natural hair colour . Anyhoo , New Moon was so-so . Not really a fan . Next movie to catch with Baby , Couples Retreat . The trailer’s funny , lol .

Well that’s about it for now , update soon .

Goodnight , peace .

Mood : Contented laa duh .
Current Song : How Low Can You Go By Ludacris .

December's Good For A Start .

2009-12-12T16:46:00.009+08:00

" If you wanna be two faced , atleast make one of it pretty . "

I do not know where to start actually but mos def , December's good for a start . Though work had been tiring , boohoo . Well , incase if you're wondering where im working at , find me @ Orchard Central through The Runway *winks* you'll find me there . Well yea , but my work there is temporary and I'm only being called up when they're having events , so yea , I still am waiting for Uniqlo to call me back & Zara too . They don't want part-timers , so I applied for temporary full-time cause I thought twice through it . Plus Syasya said it'll be worth it since I'm not gonna be schooling for the next 5 months , worth my time working and worth the moolahs spending but of cause , I gotta sacrifice my time for family , Baby & my girls . Speaking of spending time with my girls , when are we going out ?? We need a catch up session soon before Ira goes off to Bandung . Text me up girls(:

Anws , can't wait for tomorrow , I'll be going out with Baby tomorrow to check out some shops at ulu places , they've got the finest stuffs there . After I am done with my exams . Yes yes , my madrasah exams . Just when I thought I'd be totally done with exams , I totally spaced out about this one . Whatmore , the examination centre is soo god damn far . Speaking of spacing out , tonight supposedly catching New Moon , late night movie with Younger Brother , Aryxsha & Baby , but thing is , I totally spaced out that Baby's working today & so I called him , and asked and damn was I silly . We'll catch it again next time together yea ? But tonight I'm still going with my lovely siblings , just nearby home . Thanks to Arxysha for the treat and the extra allowance , heeeee(:

Oh yea , watched Ninja Assassin & Zombieland . Great movies , I'd rate 3.5/5 for both . Go catch it people . Anws I miss slumming at civic with the usuals , things pretty much changed and I can no longer be like how I used to . But keep this in mind , you guys and babes are not forgotten . I'm just having a rough time and need to settle down for awhile . Be back with tracks with Sheeq but we can't promise when . We've been busy with our own life but we'll be back hopefully . But not any sooner though . Aside that , I wanna dance again . Someone's been waiting for too long now and I can't let her down . So yea , hopefully I can gain the momentum to dance again . And oh , to Syasya , Shabirah & those who's taking their N Level results in a matter of days , all the best and good luck . And Shabirah , we'll meet up soon alrightes .

Hmm , I'm still contemplating on whether should I or should I not go for the event at the Wavehouse . Still pondering . Good thing , Zee's holding the tickets , I can just ask her for it . But thing is , I gotta ask some of my friends to come along , atleast got the kakis okay already but still hafta ask Baby . I definitely don't want him to worry . Who don't wanna go man ? Che'nelle and Tech One's in the house .

On another note ; I miss my Girls , Baby , Bbygs & I love every single one of you .
I know it's been long since we met each other but hopefully we'll catch up soon yea ?
Oh yea , have you guys been to 313 ? Well , if not , you should . I went there during
the opening and it was superb , go check it out ! :D

I guess that's about it for now , I'll update when I can .
Have A Good Day Ahead , Peace .

Mood : Neutral
Current Song : Stronger By Mary J Blige ( Don't you just love that song ? Lol . )

Potent Love

2009-12-01T00:05:00.005+08:00

Happy 1st Year Anniversary Baby .

" I Love You Like My Endless Raindrops ,
I Love You Like Your Accumulating Numbers ,
I Love You Like How Parallel Lines Crosses At Infinity . "
- Deezymphany .

Throughout the year , we've had our ups and downs but despite all that ,
we're still going on strong . I've expressed my love for you endlessly and
I will never stop . You know my love for you is potent . Our first year might
be simple , but to me , what's more important is being with you . I've never
wanted anything because you're the greatest gift from God that I'd ever
ask for & I thank God for that . Last but not least , thank you for everything
Baby , I appreciate all that you've done for me .

I Love You .

We've been through the storm , We've been through it all ,
We had some close calls , But never would fall . We climbed
all the mountains , Walked through all the valleys , And
you never left me behind .

I found my way through the clouds , No more runnin'
scared and closing my eyes , I will be true , this love
from my heart ,I'm laying my life on the line .

I will survive , As long as it's you by my side .
I will survive , As long as it's you by my side .
I'm stronger, stronger, stronger .
I'm stronger, stronger, stronger .

They said we wouldn't make it , But guess what, we made it ,
And we got them wondering how . You were always for me ,
Never been the one to hurt me , You gave me peace of mind .

I found my way through the clouds ,
No more runnin' scared and closing my eyes ,
I will be true, this love from my heart ,
I'm laying my life on the line .

I will survive , As long as it's you by my side .
I will survive , As long as it's you by my side .
I'm stronger, stronger, stronger .
I'm stronger, stronger, stronger .

Sometimes I can't believe , That you are with me ,
There's nobody lucky as me . So I get on my knees ,
To make sure that He , Knows that I'm grateful ,
For what He gave me .

I will survive , I will survive ,
As long as it's you by my side ,
I will survive , I will survive .
I'm stronger , stronger .
I'm stronger , stronger .

I'm stronger , stronger , I will survive .

Tired

2009-11-25T00:14:00.010+08:00

" Love the person who saw you when you were invisible "

Okay , I do not know where to start actually . My fingers had been itching to update but I'm just plain lazy to but wtheck , so yea , here goes . I wanted to post this earlier during Sherry's birthday but I couldn't find the time to but anws ; Happy Belated Birthday Babe ! May you be blessed with love always , and when you need someone to hear you out , you know who to turn to *winks* , love ya girl ! Anws , the picture above is one of the pictures taken during the class outing two days ago . And yea , that's the tie dye dress Baby gotten me months ago , though I wore it as a skirt cause it's a tube dress and I was afraid if it would fall off cause I'm kinda rough at times , heh .

Anyhoo , didn't went to the job interview as a floor server/bartender/cashier at The Wavehouse at Siloso Beach cause of the age limit , sad aye ? Dude , c'mon I'm turning eighteen in a matter of months , you gotta be kidding me . Boohoo . That's the sad thing when you're not legal yet haha . But yea , the restaurant & bar was much more grand than Jim Thompson . Everything's up to their criteria but all thanks to my age ~ *sighs* . If only I've gotten that job , the upcoming launch of Fresh Spring Break would be f.o.c for me , man . Lol . But alls good , the place is far from where I live anws , so thinking of the transportation cost , I'll pass anws , lol . But yea , wanna go surfing with Baby there one day *winks* . See laa , soo semangat bring resume & documents all then never go . Heh . Nad , nad . Tsk tsk tsk .

Oh yea , job hunting with the girls was fun . Filled in forms , made calls and now , waiting for calls . From mostly town areas & some just nearby . Jane & Syasya already gotten jobs at Ion . So yea , they're helping us out too . Be heading down to the office soon . Supposedly yesterday , but was too tired out . Well , whatever it is I hope for the best and I hope I get a job soon *smiles* .

Okay , I'm already missing my Baby , haiyaa .

I guess that's about it now , i'll update soonish .
Goodnight ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

Mood : Hungry , Dazing & Happy .
Current Song : Good Girls Go Bad By Cobra Starship Featuring Leighton Meester .

Sum It All Up

2009-11-20T23:45:00.005+08:00

" You might not be here , for everybody . But you're here for somebody " - RR

Yes , like finally . I've got my jeans back . Yaay . Well it wasn't as ripped as before , but this is the aftermath of skating too much , back in those days . Sadly , threw away my skates cause its wheels are damn worn off , it's slanting inwards man , lol . Missed those babies but wtheck , it's almost wrecked anws . Speaking of skating , Ira gotten herself a new longboard , kickass I tell you . Now I really miss doing all these stuffs . Bummer .

So yea , on Monday was supposed to be having an interview but , it was postponed to this coming Monday . So idk how to slot in time for it as I've got a class outing at Sentosa on the same day and as well as to celebrate someone's birthday *looks up to the picture* , hehehe . Make sure those who's going , bring alot of eggs , flour , blah blah blah *grins* . Will be going for another interview at Sentosa too , yup , you've guessed which place *winks* . Anws , be going out with Sherry tomorrow , going job hunting . Yes . As tiring as it sounds , I'm in need of a motherfucking job . Soo much for " I don't need that job anws " -.- how contradicting can I be sometimes to myself , lol . Well , good thing that interviews are filling in but the interviews are in days and I hafta wait -.- I need to start pronto . I'm damn bored for sitting at home , past week . Doing nothing but eat , eat , eat & eat . Damn . I need to do something productive , haha .

Anyhoo , past two days had been accompany-ing Baby over at his crib ; Thursday , we watched Obsessed , he played his PSP , blah blah blah , then in the end , he fell asleep when I needed to go home -.- lol . Woke him up but he said he was too tired to open the door , luckily Kak Liza told me which key is which or else , I hafta wait the whole night till she comes home . Today ; brought him food , watched Mirrors and some other few tv shows , blah blah blah , then he sent me off . Oh yea , I'm love with the bangles that Kak Liza gave me , they're soo prettayye , lol . Especially , the turqoise ones *smiles* , she offered me the prettayye earrings too but sadly , I'm not used to wearing those dangling ones . Oh yea , had a conversation with Baby just now , and what a coincidence , both of us wanted to get our brows pierced and getting ourselves inked . Kickass . Hehehe . Both of us wants to do it but we know it's against our religion , so yea . Rather be safe than sorry in the end . If yknow what I mean . Lol .

Anws , watched the movie that I've been wanting to watch , The Wackness . Straight up , it's not for those who's narrow-minded . It's rated M-18 in the US . So yea .

Okay , I guess that's about it for now . Update soonish .
Goodnight ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

Mood : Contented , Sleepy & Dazing .
Current Song : Heard Em' All By Amerie .

Redemption .

2009-11-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

I don't care of what you may think of me after reading the previous post . Everybody goes through it once in awhile , it proves that we're humans and we have feelings and that we all make mistakes . I chose to post it as a redemption of what I've done . And that I just needed this off my chest . I admit that I'm wrong . Well , I'm a human , I'm not flawless and I do make mistakes . I hope things will get better in time . Insya Allah .

Good night ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

I'm A Damage To Myself .

2009-11-18T00:17:00.003+08:00

" Trust is golden and hard to gain . It ain’t easy but I’ll gain it fully in time . "

How could I do this to you ? I really regret of all the words that came out from my mouth to the person whom I love soo much and much deeply . What have gotten into me ? I’ve never seen myself this way before . Im totally mad at myself for all the damages I’ve done . How could I do such things to the person I love the most ? This guilt of hurting you and making you feel bad or insulted , it will not wear off anytime soon , it’s gonna take me sometime because I really regret doing what I’ve done to you . How could I be soo selfish and not reasonable enough ? Why couldn’t I understand your needs ? Why am I always thinking of my own needs ? Why have I been soo cold for not understanding what you’ve been through ? Why ? You don’t deserve such things , you don’t . I’ve been selfish . I deserve all the bad stuffs that I’ve sent instead of you . I’ve always been thinking about my feelings more than I do for yours’ and that’s just selfish . And I really am sorry for that . How I wish I could take all those words back :(

For everytime that I looked at you when you were sleeping on my lap and as I brushed through your hair , I felt like crying because despite that I’ve hurt you , you just carried on being yourself and appear like nothing happened between us . I really feel at my very worst because you were strong enough to face me eventhough I’ve hurt you just a day before . I felt like crying at the moment I saw you smiling at me , thinking that I’d never see that smile again . I’ve taken everything around me for granted . Listened too much to my intuitions since young that it have damaged me ; emotionally and mentally in the present . I’m always thinking that I’m right but this time I’m in the wrong .

I really hope I can make it up to you dear , to mend the damages . Love you like infinity , cherish and appreciate every moment . I realised I haven’t been soo grateful towards you , all I ever do is demand . And from the bottom of my tiny heart , I really am sorry for what I’ve done . And not only that , I’m sorry for making a big fuss infront of the boys , because you don’t deserve to . I feel bad big time . Besides this , I’m sorry about what I’ve said about your friends too , I didn’t mean to . I do things out of anger and I don’t think before I do something when I’m angry too . And I know you’re still mad at me deep down but I know you’re trying not to think of it and have this issue out of the way . I hope I can change myself for the better . I really do . I don’t expect my apology to be accepted by you but I just want you to know , how deeply sorry I am . Once again , I apologise sincerely from the bottom of my heart .

2009-11-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

Another day has gone by . A day filled with kaleidoscopic encounters .
I hope for a better day tomorrow meanwhile stay tuned to my Tumblr
for more updates .

Good night ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

Sunday Bloody Sunday .

2009-11-15T23:10:00.005+08:00

" Happiness comes from knowing that the people you love are happy . " - RR

Well today wasn't as what the title says . It's just that , today was one of the most mundane days i've ever had to go through -.- Well , the first thing that I did after I bathe was glueing myself to the computer screen . I had nothing to do ! And I am damn bored . Well , a little later in the evening went out with Sherry and Ika to photocopy documents and resumes for tomorrow's big day . Lol . Afterwhich , got some snackies then off to chill at civic . Well , we literally did some " chilling " . It was fucking cold man and I didn't bring along any sweater with me . So after that , we just sat around outside of civic for awhile . And oh yea , did I mention that the 3 of us wore exactly the same ? -.- hahahah . Well , we did . It was a total coincidence . Hahaha . Grey long sleeve , light blue jeans , black flipflops and with our hair let down . Ika & I was waiting for Sherry and at the moment when she arrived , she was already laughing when she saw that the 3 of us wore the same hahaha :D

Anyhoo , supposed to be at Chong Pang CC earlier on for an event but I didn't cause it was a pretty last minute thing for me . Cause I didn't planned to go at all . Well some of my friends insisted but I still didn't go cause I had other things to do , sorry lovelies . Anws , Baby's standing guard for Obama at Marina today the whole day due to the Apec Meeting . I miss him alot man . Well , meeting him soon yaay . I guess that's about it now . Update again .

Good night ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

Mood : Hungry
Current Song : Stronger By Mary J. Blige

Well , I Waited .

2009-11-14T18:33:00.007+08:00

“ If you hate a person , you hate something in them that is part
of yourself. What isn’t part of ourselves doesn’t disturb us. ”

I guess I must've been pretty bored today . I spent the whole afternoon Tumblr-ing *sighs* . Well , was supposed to be out but apparently someone was lazy , boohoo . And of course , my body was aching all over . But whatever , there's always a next time . Wanted to accompany Syasya to pick out her prom dress but in the end I didnt cause I was too beat . So yea , here I am rotting at home on a cooling Saturday night . Oh my . I want hot cocoa/choco . Or maybe some milk tea - bubble tea instead . And a copy of Teen Vogue . That'll do *sighs deeply* .

You're lucky I still miss you . And oh , of course , I love you .
Good night ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy .

Mood : I swear to God , I've been PMS-ing since yesterday -.-
Current Song : Telephone By Lady Gaga & Beyonce

I Feel Good .

2009-11-13T03:41:00.011+08:00

" The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision . "

Hello again . Felt like blogging , so here I am . Duh , Nad . Anws , I can't sleep man . Been munching the whole time . Ate a few heavy meals today and still am hungry . Now im eating chocolates , great . Anws , what a day to start after exams . I've been lazing around and slept the whole day as I couldnt get some sleep last night , fixing the codes for this blog , that I only managed to sleep at 6 plus I think then slept till one plus . Pfft . Oh yea , went to Shiqin's this afternoon for a catch up session along with Ira . It was only for a short while as Ira had to go home early . Much later in the evening , chilled with Ika at the usual place along with Shiqin .

Anws , I don't know why I feel much more euphoric/happier these days then those gloomy days I had . Maybe , partly it's because im done with exams ( less burdens -.- ) . But . Well ... Let's just say , there's more to it of why I am . Hmm . Idk myself . But im sure im happy the way my life is right now . Of course , there are the ups and downs but I'll try to manage them . Yknow life's not perfect and if you assumed that I think that my life is perfect and flawless , you're totally wrong . No matter how anybody says their life's perfect there's always prone to be imperfections . Im sure you guys know how life is right ? Oh anws , it's Friday the 13th . Haha okay , no link -.-

Oh yea , I'm already missing my Baby . It's only been 2 or 3 days since we last met but it felt like forever ? Hehe . Time goes by slowly when you've got totally nothing to do . But yaay ! I can spend more time with Baby ! But I still hafta get the job before I could *sighs deeply* hopefully I'll get the job . Hmm . I guess that's about it now , I wanna hit the sacks . And for God knows how many times I've said this over and over again ; I love my man , man . HEHEHE !

Good night ; Peace , Spread The Love & Joy . No really , I mean it .

Mood : Sleepy
Current Song : Stronger By Mary J. Blige

Changed Again .

2009-11-12T04:30:00.005+08:00

“ Your intellect may be confused , but your emotions will never lie to you . ” Alan

Hello there , readers . It's been a long time coming , haha . ( Okay , mcm fhm ) Hehe . Anyhoo , as many of you know O's have ended ! And it's time to partayyyyyyyyye ! Lol , not exactly . Still gotta work to kill time before the resultsssss *gulps* . I've got nothing much to update on actually cause I've updated on my Tumblog and those who reads it , knows what's up . So yea . But I've "imported" the Tumblr text posts only , here on my blog just incase something happens . Well , nothing's gonna happen actually but just incase , lol .

Sorry if I've set my blog to private for awhile just now , was fixing the codes . And I've spent 2 hours doing on this baby . So here's the outcome , and I'm satisfied with it , heeee . Anyhoo , I think I'm gonna keep the posts shorter than the usual long ones you see on this blog , I can't be bothered already . Lazy . Haha . Furthermore , I've got a few more online diaries to update . Oh yea , just created my own Vox few days back , its functions are almost the same as Tumblr . Not as user friendly though but it's okay . Still manageable .

Oh yea , went to Soul Theory . It was an awesome night . Well about it , you can read the previous post to know more of what it was like . And pictures are up on FB too , so those who wants their picture , just grab em' man . And oh , I love my man , man . Lol , wth ?

Mood : Sleepy , Dazing .
Current Song : Get Live By Strange Fruit Project & Erykah Badu

Finally .

2009-11-11T17:56:00.001+08:00

Woooooooohooooooooooo ! Damn O levels are done man ! Plus ive got great news from Syasya regarding the job i wanted to work at , those who wants to come along or still finding a job , just gimme a call or simply leave a message wherever you can , lol ! Finally , after ive called and came down to the outlet , im gonna work there but Insya Allah , I will get it . Btw , thanks Sya for telling ! It’s a new hot store , where guys burn their money . Lol . Okay so , the moment the invigilator asked us to stop writing , i felt the adrenaline rush pumped through , and i almost jumped out of my seat but i can’t , lol . The rest of the candidates were smiling , from globe to globe hahaha , too excited . But nevertheless good luck for those who’s STILL sitting for their O’s tomorrow for Mother Tongue B , retake (:

Anyhoo , Baby came over from work yesterday to play with the kitties . Both the kitties and Baby were soo cute , haha ! I can see that Baby loves Fluffy among the other cats , cause he told me she was like his old kitten that he had when he was young . Haha the rest of the cats can’t help but to sniff Baby all over haha , cause they couldn’t recognise his smell . Cause the last time Baby came over , was quite long ago ? Haha , can’t recall . Oh yea , Baby already met my Dad . And I met Baby's sister(:

Anws , Malay Paper retake was much more easier than the ones I took in July . Alhamdulillah . The paper was basically giving away marks . Till then people , I’ll update again soon(:

And Baby , I Love You (:

I Love You !

2009-11-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

Hahahaha , I just love this picture ! He just loves to smile or making faces and take pictures ! Well , he used not to but oh wells , he changed , credits to me . Anyhoo , I don’t know what i am actually psyched over , perhaps it’s because O’s are ending in like what ? Two bloody days ? Gosh , to the O level candidates , I bet you can smell freedom . Cause , I can smell it from a far already and adding on to it , going to prom ! Well prom is a last minute thing and the information is still not updated but thanks anws for those who actually proposed the idea to you know who -.-

Well , for the past 3 years , there wasnt any prom because , nobody wanted to go , I meant the seniors didn’t wanted to . Gosh , prom is the ish man . Maybe the fee was too costly back then , but for my prom it’s cut down to half the price of last two years prom . Who dont wanna go man ? Tsk tsk tsk . Oh yea , im still waiting for the stores to call me up , if they don’t by last paper , I hafta work back with Jim Thompson . Fuck , the place’s sooo far man but the pay is dayummmm good . Im just lazy to go back and forth from work . Plus working in the fnb line is never easy , it’s tiring . Been there done that . Though I miss those times when the Bbygs finished work and we head to Botanic Garden to take pictures . Haha , classic . And I miss the Nasi Briyani at the canteen over at BG . && oh , mos def I miss having ” kenduri ” session when I was working at JT , haha ! Plus , the mango dessert were never missed . Dang .

To my beloved potential workplaces please call me back asap , I need a job man . Lol . Oh yeah , And ohmygrint , can you believe it ? Exactly 3 weeks and one more day , nigga we’re bad , sooo bad ;)

Soul Theory

2009-11-08T04:05:00.000+08:00

Had a helluva night yesterday . Thanks to Baby , My Girls , Bbygs , The Boys . I was totally happy to meet all of them in one night . You guys made my night , really . I had a great time ! I love you guys ! Mos def , im happy to see the others , Da Fam , Streetfam , Hetty , Aween , Adamentium , Sha & lotsssssssss more . Oh yea , bumped into Ykid . Sorry bro , couldn’t see you at first , place was dark man . Okay so , before I head to YP , headed to Ion alone . I applied for jobs after calling the stores , kickass stores . Well , on wednesday went to Toa Payoh CC for an interview for the new stores in Toa Payoh’s upcmg new shopping centre . I was late thanks to the bloody people who got me the wrong directions to the CC . Alls good , I think I won’t be needing the job anws . Action sia , Nad .

Anws was supposed to send off cousin in law to Abu Dhabi ( I think ? ) earlier on but instead I headed to town . I was supposed to accompany mum as Aryxsha was celebrating Nana’s birthday , Dad was at work and Younger Brother was lazy . Well , I felt guilty cause I didnt accompany mum instead went to town . Sorry Mum . Speaking of which , O’s gonna end in 4 more days nigga . Two more wars then im done for , wooooohooooo ! Malay paper , retake & Combined Science paper one . Okay , I guess that’s all for now , I’ll update soonish ! (:

This Is It

2009-10-31T04:09:00.000+08:00

So I watched ” This Is It ” , with Baby few hours back . One word for the show ; kickass . Like seriously . And i can’t stop laughing at certain parts cause MJ was just soo cute . Okay , that sounds abit weird but yea , he was . Felt like he’s still living among us when I was watching the movie . Anws the show would be awesome and spectacular if he’s still with us , physically . The sets , the videos and whatnots . I’d rate the show 5/5 , so go catch the movie people (:

Was awakened by Baby’s text and calls . Hehe , sorry Baby . I slept like a log man -.- didn’t wanted to head out cause I was fretting for SS this coming monday but in the end I did . But while waiting for Baby to come over to Woodlands , I mugged for awhile . Did some notes on Geography and read on abit of SS . Initially Baby wanted to come over to play with the kitties but I woke up late , lol . So then , he said he wanted to catch the movie and so did I . And agreed to watch nearby cause I wanted to mug at night .

Anyhoo , O’s is sooooooooooooooo damn difficult . I panicked for English paper one cause I was running outta time and cause I was distracted . And maths papers sucked balls . Man , it’s tough *sighs deeply* .

Evaluate .

2009-10-23T21:03:00.010+08:00

" Take every chance , drop every fear . "

God , look at the cobwebs . It must have been too long that ive left this blog abandoned .
Lol . Reason why , ive updated is that , I just feel that there is a need to update . Yes , as
predicted . Everything starts to differ . Life's okay , just that , it's been on rocky road for
too long now . Exams started and im still trying to overcome the " nocturnalism " .

Science practical was easy 'cept the fact that Physics was abit too longwinded .

Chemistry was definitely way easier . Anyhoo , im like mugging on combined

humans . And oh , I hate Geog , i want History . But too bad , our batch can't

opp for History anymore . It's all Geog . Im not a Geog person yknow . But of

course I love my Geog teacher , cause she's my dance teacher i/c .

Oh yea , speaking of mugging . Im struggling with Art paper two . Yes , it's endlessssss .
I havent even start on it , just a few sketches and whatnots . Im doing on twist and tangles .
Did rusting at first but a friend of mine suggest that I should do on twist and tangles , so
as to prevent from going off concept . And of course , I agreed with her cause once I start
doing things my own way , it's a total different thing , lol .

Anws , im glad that Aryxsha's not gonna be a teacher from next week onwards . The
kids over at the school are like fuck . Of course congrats upon the new job ;) can't wait
to see you in your uniform . Aryxsha's gonna be away for camp and training , the usual
stuffs when youre working for the government . Yes yes , the ICA called sissie when she
was working , last few weeks . Now she's under Hometeam Academy and gonna report
for camp like any other NS men , heheheheheheh . Hopefully , she'll be posted to the
CAAS . Then I can disturb her at work if I head down to the airport , lol .

Oh yea ! Happy Dope 23rd Birthday Big Dope & Happy Advanced 18th Birthday
Phoenix , hehehe . May you both be blessed with love always . To Big Dope , the Marc
Ecko's still blingin' *winks* and To Phoenix , I wanna thank you for all the advices , and

the reality checks , hope you will find the love of your life soon . Have a rockin' birthday
celebration and I'll see you guys soonish . And I mean reaallll soon ;)

Anyhoo , had a debate with Mum -.- and of course it's about being in ITE and Poly .
I dont mind if it's ITE , cause I believe that when youre in it , you'll be able to learn new
skills of course . Im a hands on kinda person , so I dont mind but yknow parents , they
want what's best for their children eventhough it's our decision . As for me , if shit
happens , it's straight to SMA . Yes yes , im lucky that Irfan used to be schooling there .
I miss that guy and his random jokes . Now that he's doing attachment at Shangri La ,
he's got no time for his cousins . Sad thing , boohoo .

Currently Syasya's over at my crib . And she's beside me , okay soo precise . She just
gotten back after chilling with Eeqa , and meeting Radit . I miss Eeqa and the others .
Nadyra too . And of course my homegirl . Though I was disappointed she left without
saying goodbye , I understand that she needs her own space . Cause I know she hates
it alot when people starts clinging on to her and not giving her space to breathe .
Come back home soon niggarette .

I guess thats about it for now . I'll update as soon as im done with O levels . Havent
been updating much on Tumblr too . And on Twitter . And Plurk . And oh , you'll get
the point . Anws , to my dear Baby . Sorry if ive been a Royal Bitch in the ass . My mood
swings been hitting me up lately . And im sorry if ive annoyed you or agitate you in any
ways *sad face* I love you Wolvy .

Till then , goodnight readers . Stay tuned to my Tumblr , if you want updates (:

Mood : Neutral
Current Song : Get Live By Strange Fruit Project Ft. Erykah Badu

The Fuck ?

2009-10-16T04:11:00.000+08:00

Bloody hell , I was Tumblr-ing when Younger Brother switched off the powerpoint for the comp . Now I hafta start over again . One thing for sure , is that , I hate being interrupted when I have the drive to blog or on the comp . It simply pisses me off .

Anyhoo , im pretty much tired out . Eventhough I was late for school this morning , im still soooooo lethargic . Took my power nap but still it wasnt as effective . Physics was okay , somehow I managed to concentrate . But I didnt managed to be on time for Maths and Chemistry lessons . School’s actually closed for marking day , as EOY for the juniors has just ended . But still , boohoo for us Sec 5’s . We still hafta come back to clear our final doubts before practical which is this coming Wednesday .

The worksheets before the finals are piling up man . And we hafta finish it all by Wednesday . Be it Chemistry , Physics , Maths and Combined Humans . Shit . I suck in Combined Humans , period . God , help me .

SOS .

2009-10-13T04:13:00.001+08:00

I can’t seem to get some sleep these days . Been waking up in the middle of the night and going back to sleep after that . Hmmmmmmmm . Ive changed some everyday routines due to the intensive revision which I actually find pointless and redundant . It’s as good as giving us , Sec 5’s a study break for this whole month . We’ll do the same with or without it . Anws , my main subjects that I wanna do well for is English , Malay , Maths and of course an easy score , Art . Gosh , if only Ive started studying PROPERLY , earlier on . If only , I wouldn’t have hated Maths . If only , Ive conversed in Malay more often *sighs* .

Yaay .

2009-10-10T04:14:00.000+08:00

Currently am following Aryxsha and friends for Jalan Raya along with Younger Brother . I have nothing much to do sitting at home doing nothing . I know that im supposed to be mugging but I just need another time out . Two weeks till first paper . Im just glad that im coping well for maths , been passing a few papers but still I hafta put in more effort than I am right now . Ive been fretting about not doing well and I still am *sighs * though im still pressing on .

Anws , i didnt went for Physics lessons this morning cause im too tired out . Though i did woke up early then I snoozed off again -.- my head and stomach’s aching due to the laughters last night at RP . Baby was being soo cute running back and forth to me cause he wants to disturb me , i didnt get to concentrate at first but in the end , I finished a few worksheets .

Went to RP with Marissa & Sherry then bumped into Fate , Double Dee & Eman . So yea , headed to usual place with them . Then after we settled , fetched Baby from E4 then brought him to the place where the guys were breaking for that night .

Then along came , Soph , Jor & Adrian . Not only that , nearby our ex-schoolmate Shazuan was there too with his friends . So basically it was full of people we know , haha . Then along came Hanes & Rica . Ive introduced Baby to alot of my schoolmates and he was being so cute laa , haha . Okay so , we mugged till ten plus then started fooling around . Yknow , people like us . We can’t mug all the way up till eleven . There’s prone to be excitement ;)

So yea , few of the rest went off early leaving Sherry & I . And of course , with the boys . That was last night though . Im missing my Baby already :(

Anws been going to tuition lately and never missing any school lessons , yaay me . Let’s hope i can get through this month .

Mug Hard Baby .

2009-10-06T04:17:00.000+08:00

Mugging at RP with Sherry was great . I’ve multi-tasked by mugging , being with Sherry , with Baby & The Boys . Was mugging when along came Yanie & Amy . Initially it was my night out mugging with Sherry but i don’t mind cause the more people , the merrier . Haha . Anyways , unlike any other days , I love today as many sweet and funny moments happened but sadly my dear Baby is sick .

And oh , my dear friends can’t help it but to say that I look alike like Baby . Hehe . And according to scientific , human facts and human experience , this means that we could last long in our relationship , can’t say nothing about this one cause fate is in God’s hands therefore , i pray for us to last long Baby(:

I Lovey You .

Soo Much For It

2009-09-28T15:36:00.014+08:00

Yes , soo much for the hiatus . See how fickle-minded i can be . Haha . Anyhoo ,
im getting addicted to Tumblr-ing . Lol . Blogger's getting mundane but still , i wont
delete this blog of mine , all of my rantings , life and whatsoever had been kept in
here for a year plus now , so yea no way im gonna delete it though i might be
considering changing the url to it , lol . I'll see how .

So yea . If i have long posts , it'll be here . You know how i like my posts to be long ;)
and of course the short posts will be up on Tumblr . So , just drop by to my Tumblr for
little updates while i go on hiatus . Cause i know i wont have time for long posts during
this study break and i hope my short posts can keep you readers preoccupied for the
moment while im off to study , hehehehehehehehhehe *big grins*

To the Boos & Bies , hope to slum with ya'll soon after O's finishes ! Cant wait ,
meanwhile im gonna be totally fucking busy . Prelims sucked and i hate the outcome .
It's pure disappointing , though i have exactly three weeks to change for good results .
Damn ... I gotta start not to be lazy and stubborn -.- "

Anyhoo , to those who's taking their O levels along with me , good luck and all the
best to you guys yea ! Study smart and press on , we only have a few weeks to go
till the first paper and then a few weeks till end of papers from the first paper and
then we're done . A month and a half is not as long as it sounds , infact , it's very short .
So yea , dont procrastinate no more and get your ass studying ! Good luck people ! (:

Whatever little updates , you'll find it here .

My Tumblr is simple cause i want it that way , so yea .
Enjoy and oh , i'll be back as soon as after exams ended ;)

Mood : Erm ? Happy ?
Current Song : Only You By Ashanti

My Girls .

2009-09-28T04:20:00.001+08:00

Sometimes , i just feel like i shouldnt have done things that ive done without thinking . I feel ashamed of myself for what ive done and said on my blog . I wish i could take it back , all of it . I mean you gotta understand , sometimes you tend to do stuffs without thinking cause all you want to do is to feel satisfy while the other party is left hurt or discriminated . And i wanna apologize to all those whom ive hurt in any ways or discriminated anyways . Sometimes people like me just choose to preach by any way that we like , but come to think of it , i feel that im being unfair to others .

Ive not learnt that i shouldnt let feelings overcome myself but it’s hard for me cause i wasnt born with a positive mind and i hate that alot . Wish , i could change and start thinking positively . And so that i can fuck the world . It’s basically mind over matter .

But still , i cant accept the people around me who have bad intentions and motives to break me down . I only love the people who loves me . So please , leave me at peace and let me lead my own life . Thats all im asking for .

Nigga , Please .

2009-09-26T17:27:00.011+08:00

Whats wrong with the things revolving around me ; the world . Im pretty much messed

up and confused with alot of things thats happening around me . But i shall not be , time
will tell . And after O's , im gonna go all out . I close one eye cause i dont wanna be
distracted for O's . I wanna study and give my all . After the last paper , i wont be having
any halo above my head . I'll be a walking black book . Im gonna start from A to Z . Oh no .
Im not getting back , im just getting even . Ive tried to extinguish the fire in between ,
but no .. Its being played with , again and again . Like its waiting for someone to get burnt .
Again and again . Ive tried & ive tried . But it keeps pulling me back .

Enough ah . Prelims sucked balls . I did very badly and i dont wanna talk about it . On
another note , i'll be having intensive revision in school . Monday till Friday . From early
morning all the way up till six . All day everyday for three weeks till the first paper of O's .
And yes , wont be out that often for raya or outings or whatsoever .

Still , I have a great feeling i wont be doing well for O's . I dont know why *sighs* .

Past few days , things been hectic . Feelings and emotions are all over the place . I dont
know how to explain some , even . And oh , i dont see you as a competition at all . Cause
all i ever see you doing is trying to get on everybody's ass and trying to be a ball carrier .
Now thats just a major turn off .

And oh , youre tripping again . Youre starting to piss me off again . Ive shut my fucking
mouth about it already . You started it . Dont tell me i didnt . And dont make me start .

Fuck ah , i dont know whats happening ah .

Mood : -
Current Song : -

Guilty Pleasures

2009-09-22T23:53:00.003+08:00

Aryxsha's

Mine :

Thought of trying Aldo's but it was a last minute shoe hunting . So i got myself and Aryxsha
the above . Snake skin baybeh *wriggles eyebrows like cadbury advertisement* LOL .

The Movement .

2009-09-22T20:27:00.007+08:00

" Love is a choice you make from moment to moment . " - Syaz

First day of raya was okay , missed the cousins like hell man . This year , most
of my relatives wore purple . As for my family , Aryxsha and I wore white for
the first day while Mum , Dad and Younger Brother wore blue . Was happy to
meet the cousins , its been long , since the last meet up at Irfan's house .

As per normal , wearing headscarf for the first day is a must for me and Aryxsha
since we are not wearing it already every since we were nine ? Mum's side is kinda
religious , so yea . But me and Aryxsha have no prollems upon wearing it only for
the first day cause its only for a day . So dont be shocked if you see pictures of me
wearing it(:

Anyhoo , spent my eve of raya cleaning up my room all the way till six in the morning .
Mum insisted of me to sleep early for the big day the next day but i was being persistent . Because there was still soo much to do and knowing myself i wont stop till everything's
done . So i continued cleaning up till the room is totally clean . There's total of ten big
plastic bags thrown ? Yea , that much . I totally clean my room out . Mum was totally
shocked when she saw what i have done to the room when she woke up for Subuh
prayers . I have set a zen theme for Aryxsha's side and she was happy of what i have
done too . Since she liked sleeping on the comfortable mat like some japanese women ,
i have the whole big queen sized bed all to myself , weehee(:

Anws Syasya came over after we had our bubble tea session . She attempted to
play with Younger Brother's acoustic guitar . And yes , just like how you would have
predicted , she played it anyhow . But alls good as i taught her how to play the chords
to Hey Monday's Homecoming . She was on Younger Brother's Acoustic while I was on
Younger Brother's electric . Teaching her was kinda easy cause she caught up fast .

Oh yea , Happy Birthday to my Bbyg , Adel ! May you be blessed with love always .
Ily girl and misses much ! And oh , i hope you get the watch you've been eyeing on ;)

Mood : Swingy
Current Song : The One By Mary J & Drake

You're Too Much

2009-09-22T17:36:00.009+08:00

Please , just leave us alone . Dont be an itch to our skins . You've been a girlfriend
before . Im sure you know how i would feel . Whats past is past , dont bring things
up again . Please , im just asking you to respect our status and just leave us alone .
Is that soo much to ask for ? Ive washed my hands and forgave all your sins towards
me . And i hope you do the same . Please , im getting tired off all this . Ive got my future
to think off and i dont want anymore problems affiliated with you . Sorry if this is rude ,
but you're totally out of the picture . Both of us dont want to have to do anything that's
affiliated to/with you at all . What youre trying to do is pure bad intentions .
But you tryna make it seem indirect , let it go already . Let it go .

Please just leave us alone and at peace . Things are already perfect without you
around . So please , just leave us alone . Please , thats all im asking for .

I hope The Almighty , will show you the right way and lead you to another path and
not on mine . Insya Allah .

Salam Lebaran

2009-09-20T05:13:00.000+08:00

Kepada Sahabat Sahabatku & Saudara/Saudari Sesama Islam ,

Warning : Im not good in malay but wtheck , here goes :P

Sempena Hari Raya Aidilfitri , pada bulan yang suci ini , ku mohon maaf atas segala
kesilapan atau kesalahan terhadapmu . Ku mohon maaf jika ku tersilap kata , terkasar
bahasa , termaki hamun , tersindir , ataupun jika kata kata ku terguris hati mu .

Sesungguhnya Allah SWT , maha pengampun , harap dosa dosaku terhadapmu dapat
dimaafkan serta menghalalkan makan dan minumku dengan seikhlas hati . Insya Allah .
Sekian , Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri , Maaf Zahir Dan Batin .

Dengan Ikhlas Hati ,
Nadirah(:

Bummer .

2009-09-17T16:01:00.007+08:00

" Painted Faces Fill The Places I Can't Reach . "

That's Siti & I , back in January this year , if im not wrong . Anws , just had Science
Practical just now . Physics was like hncegiunvirutucowiemtvj but Chemistry was easier .
I didnt wanted to break any test tubes but in the end i broke something else . The index
card holder -.- Whaaat ... I was kidding when i said to Crystal that i am breaking that
thing . Well apparently , my hands were extra strong today cause the moment i fiddled
with it , it broke . Poor thing . Tsktsktsk .

Anyhoo , im FML-ing and i cant stop laughing at some ironic posts they put up . Stupid .
I intended not to blog today but my fingers are itching to . I'll be on a hiatus pretty soon
after raya , i guess . Oh yea , im left with Science Paper One tomorrow and then im done
with Prelims , finally . And after which , four more weeks to go . Fuck .

Maybe i'll update again later , mind block man & oh ,
the cats are soo noisy right now -.-

Mood : Dazing
Current Song : Somebody By Paramore ( Cover )

Redemption

2009-09-16T23:43:00.009+08:00

" Because The Pixies Were Crying And I Don't Know What Or How To Feel No More :( "

Sad as it seems , ive lost myself to the problems around me . Prelims are gonna end this
Friday and im the most happiest person alive to hear that . Im left with practical tomorrow
and Science Paper One on Friday . Afterwhich , might be having heels therapy with Syasya
along with Mum and perhaps Aryxsha if she's not too tired from work . And perhaps we're
going somewhere nearby cause i dont wanna go out , i dont feel good these days and
i dont feel myself . I wanna go retail therapy too , alone .

Art prelims was okay . Managed to finish up my boards though , i left a few designs hanging
for the final art and ive forgotten to write down my summaries . All in all , the actual paper
was okay , i managed to get 80% done . Hmm , i wanna watch some vids online or perhaps
read some posts on FML to unwind .

Good night and i'll update soonish . And oh , those bangs/short fringe above was soo last
two years . I still have freaking long fringe now , heh . Take note , to the person who asked .

& Oh , Kanye is soo rude but how ironic his song's playing on my blog . Tsk .

Mood : Restless
Current Song : Stronger By Mary J Blige

Like Devils Without His Ego .

2009-09-14T13:39:00.010+08:00

" Life Is A Temporary Phenomenon , What Lasts Is Love . "

I just got back from school . And screw prelims . I know nuts about Physics , i was literally
staring at the question paper and only touched it at the last half an hour . I know i should
have started earlier but whats the point of doing when you dont know a thing . I know i
should try , but im just not ready for this . I seriously gotta buck up . Oh god .

Anws , instead of Malay Paper Two , it's English Paper Two -.- must have checked the
prelims timetable wrongly . So i burnt midnight oil for nothing , lol . Silly me . But alls good
cause most of the peribahasa are in my head . I just gotta keep on using it so that i can
remember , hehe . And now i gotta practice for my Maths Paper Two tomorrow *gulps* .
Hope i'll do good . And oh , im still stuck with the second board for art prelims . Feel like
not doing but have too lorr . There's not any other choice -.-

Oh yea , i had fun watching the Split Sisters' Episode 5 . You should try catch it . A few
quotes from the video " If you're gay , you're gay . No such things as bisexual " :D

Funny shit , man .

And oh oh , i really really miss my ring . The one's that's in the picture above . It has
Baby's name engraved on it and i had to lose it . Careless , Nad *sighs* , but alls good ,
i'll make a new one soon . Good thing Baby's ring still with him . Oh , I Love You(:

Okay im being soo random right now , im sending Baby cute random videos on
his FB . Okay , i wanna get my art done . I'll update soon . Bye

Mood : Irritated
Current Song : Whuttchu Want By Oren Ishii ( XS1 )

Like Angels Without Its Halo .

2009-09-13T23:28:00.006+08:00

" You Know You're In Love When You Can't Fall Asleep
Because Reality Is Finally Better Than Your Dreams . "

Just got back from Uncle Fahmi's crib . Was invited over to break fast along with Uncle
Yat's family . Mischa was there too , missed that little girl . Anyhoo , i was pretty full cause
the food that Aunt Aty cooked was delicious , whatmore she's indonesian and she cooked
quite a few hot dishes . We had a great feast(:

After break fast , Uncle Yat showed us tons of his favourite videos on youtube and oh ,
mind him , Uncle Yat's the last child of daddy's siblings , so he thinks alike more like a
teenager though he's married of course . So yea , apparently we share the same interest .
He showed me a few videos of SYTYCD seasons , Popping John , some BOTY videos .
Yes , BOTY . I was taken back for awhile , lol . So yea , thats about it . Afterwhich ,
Aryxsha , Younger Brother & I left Uncle Fahmi's at around ten plus . Since , mum
and dad is already at home from terawih prayers .

Oh yea , dont mind the previous post . My blog , my say . I blog , you read . So yea ,
i was just letting out . Dont tell me none of you bloggers havent let out that way
before ? Im sure you guys do .

Moving on ! Yaay , the curtains are up , all thanks to Aryxsha . I helped only a little , hehe .
We have already started our spring cleaning and oh god , the room's in a mess . I gotta
clean it up soon cause i dont want to be misplacing my exam notes for prelims , lol .

I admit that i didnt really mugged hard for Physics . Im just memorizing some peribahasa
for Malay Paper 2 tomorrow . I seriously feel like giving up on Physics . I can cry throughout
the examination if i could . It's seriously a sucky feeling . I officially hate Physics . I should
have taken Biology in the first place *sighs* .

Okay im off to hit the sacks , i gotta wake up early for sahur tomorrow so that i can absorb
a few Physics basics . Yes , i hardly know the basics . How jialat is that ? Anybody , who's
good in Physics please help me , i seriously suck in it :(

Mood : Tired
Current Song : Can I Have It Like That By Pharrell Featuring Gwen .

Step In At Your Own Perils

2009-09-13T01:36:00.010+08:00

Don't Fuck Around With Me , Bitch .

You jollywell know who the fuck you are , im watching you .
You've pulled my "trigger" , and im ready to go all out on you .
I've kept quiet but you have to go around antagonizing my patience .
Ive closed my eyes on you but you kept creeping back .

Fuck off , fuckface . Piss off before I piss you off .

I've been trying to change for the better for this fasting month but YOU had to
happen . What do you know ? Another intuition has just came true .
Now it sucks how my intuitions are getting stronger and freak-ier .

Fuck you . And to whom it may concerned , dont go asking me who .
You people should know by now .

Burn Baby Burn

2009-09-12T14:46:00.010+08:00

" You Say You're Gonna Burn Before You Mellow , I Will Be The One To Burn You . "

Above picture was taken during B&B2 ! That was like months ago and Aphyik look
cute here with his botak haircut , lol ! Wait , he has always been botak kan ? Nad , Nad .
And that was me , 3kg before -.- i must have lost a few fats now , after much working
out . Fuuuuh , i feel gooooooooooood . LOL !

Im supposed to post this like few hours back but i had to help mum with the
preparation for break fast as she had an accident with the chopper O.O" and that
Arxysha was not at home to help out . I really hope mum would recover soon . She
got her left index finger nail split into two cause she didnt moved her hands away
from the side of the chicken . Yes , chicken . God , i seriously didnt saw that
coming too . She was bleeding kinda bad yesterday . God .

( Aswad & Errr ? )

Anyhoo , happy nineteenth birthday to my cousin , Aswad . Funny how i could
have just post it today instead of posting an advanced birthday wish on yesterday's
post , haha . Anws , may you be blessed with love always and do your best in NS(:
Will be meeting you and the others pretty soon !

Oh yea , things had been rather complicated aye ? I had a good long talk with
Meezah yesterday and i hope all works out for her regarding her ups and downs .
Chill out girl . Haha . Anws , mum bugged me to change the curtains since yesterday
and ive still not changed it , hehe . Mum decided to go all flowery and pinkish this
year . And oh , my raya clothes and my cosmetics are already in . As usual , Mum
got our raya clothes custom-made . It's troublesome when you have to go back and
forth to the tailor's place just for measurements -.- but alls good , preparations done ,
except for the kuih raya(: Cant wait to taste each one of them , hehe . & Oh , mum
have gotten me and Aryxsha new bags for raya , hehehe ;)

I know this sucks but ive not been getting my allowance since mum said there's
not a need to cause it's the fasting month . This is what happens when youre not
working and stuck with school . I have exactly a month left , gosh . Patience , Nad .

Anyhoo , in loving memory of Muhd. Nazri . A member of the Adamentium . I
might not be as close to him but he's definitely one of those people who had brought
smiles and laughters to his friends and the fives . A great senior he was . May you rest
in peace , my friend . " Innalillah Wainnalillah Hirajiun " Amin .

There's something else i would like to say but it's totally inappropriate especially after
my condolences . It's the " serious " part . I guess i'll say what's up on other days .
As for now , im beat and i wanna hit the sack soon . Good night .

Mood : Sleepy
Current Song : Changed Man By Chris Brown

Haha .

2009-09-12T00:18:00.007+08:00

Haha , fucker . I did saw Nick yesterday with my cousin , Aswad . Freaking small world
man . Apparently , my intuitions were right . The moment i saw Nick , i was like , isnt that
guy Raymond's brother ? Well , it is . Before i went off to the bakery , i was on FB and this
Raymond send me a wall post regarding art . Then i randomly clicked on his siblings .
I clicked on Nick . And next thing i know , i saw him . Freaky , i tell you .

But oh wells , what a small world . It seems that everybody knows each other .
And our convo was as above , i cant stop laughing . Gay brothers , lol .

We're family ah bro . I didnt know that Nicky is Aswad's close buddy . And this Raymond ,
happens to be my ex-schoolmate . Raymond brother , Nick , close to Aswad . Aswad , my
cousin , im friends with Raymond . Get the connection , lol .

This is just some random post . I'll blog again later in the afternoon regarding something
rather serious , happy and sad . Well i hope , i'll blog to what i have described , hehe .
Yknow how i am , freaking fickle-minded . Heh .

&& Oh , this is my 200th post , yaay . Okay random :D

Mood : Euphoric
Current Song : Hating On The Club By Rihanna

Spacing Out

2009-09-11T18:12:00.001+08:00

" If I Was A Boy , I'd Hurt Every Girls' Feelings . Though On Second
Thoughts , I Wouldnt Cause I'd Totally Know How A Girl Would Feel . "

Well above , is just a thought . Nothing personal , at all . Anyhoo ! Im really really really
really happy and damn right satisfied that i am bloody done with my art coursework and
boards ! *sighs in relief * . Damn , it feels gooooooooooooood , lol . I thought i'd never finish
it . Well , all thanks to Aryxsha , Younger Brother and Sheeq who had helped in either the
coursework or prep boards , i owe you guys ! Im bloody lazy when it gets down to art , but
oh wells , alls done , alls good(:

Anyhoo , sorry for not updating in awhile . Been pretty caught up with school , art and every
day life . Intended to update few days back but im always caught up with stuffs . So today ,
after i have finished with my coursework , i feel that the weight is lesser . If you know what
i mean . Nah , it's not the burdens . It's the pressure level , dont get me wrong . So yea , im
feeling much better so i decided to update . And oh gosh , next week's the last week for the
fasting month and oh gosh , next week's the last week for prelims . Yipee -.-

Well , i can assure that this year's raya is gonna be a boring one . I bet , i'll be celebrating
with exam notes while eating ketupats and whatnots -.-" . Hari Raya is gonna be a short
one for students who's taking O levels . After raya , a week later is our first paper * gulps * .
Suck balls .

Okay , im starting to fret right now . Ive not mugged hard for prelims . I know , i should
have . I can assure you that i'll flung prelims cause i admit that i didnt put in much effort :(
Eventhough , tuitions have resumed , i hope i could overcome my laziness ! Damnit .
I told myself alot of times , if i dont wanna do it for myself , atleast do it for my loved ones .
O's are as important as my future *gulps * , then again it's MY future . How ironic is that .

Anws , happy belated birthday to Milly , Meera and Kak Nisya .
And happy advance birthday to my cousin , Aswad .

Speaking of which , i bumped into him and Nicky earlier on when i headed to the
bakery . Dude , cant help it , i was craving for donuts and pastries eversince fasting
month started , lol .

Oh yea , last Tuesday . Went out with the girls . Ira Falisha Bte Azzahar was being sucha
bitch for making us wait , lol . Kidding bbyg . Anyhoo , had fun with the girls , we seriously
went allout . With the random things we did , the pictures we took . Well , that was only a
quarter of it . Cant wait for the next outing , definitely . At first , i cant get past dad ,
because of what i did . Yes , i misbehaved . So yea , luckily mum let me off . Didnt wanna
disappoint the girls as it had been quite awhile since we went out together . We break fast
at Al - Ameen . As we decided to break fast at a nearby place so that we could spend more
time catching up . I reached there a few minutes before break fast as mum decided to let
me off at the very last minute . And there ; Sherry , Ika Marissa & I waited . Waited .
Waited . And waited , for Ira who came along with Sheeq . After break fast , we decided
to head to civic as usual . Took a whole lotta pictures and they're all up on FB . So yea ,
check em' out if you wanna , though a gentle reminder : girls dont always have to look
pretty ;)

It's been quite awhile since i actually head out , been at home these days . Even if i did
head out , it's just the same old places . I seriously cant wait for O's to get done and over
with .

Anyhoo , ive changed my blog song , though it's gonna be temporary .

Okay , i gotta start doing my art prelims . Yes , prelims . One after another .
Hmm , I guess i'll mug a little ? Damn , i should . Study hard , Nad .
Buck the fuck up .

& Oh shit , my english's getting rusty * sighs * .

I'll update soon , good night .

Mood : Satisfied
Current Song : Remember By T.I & Mary J Blige

Title-less ?

2009-09-05T23:47:00.019+08:00

" If You're Burned By The Fire Imma Carry You Out ;) "

I know , the picture above is too bright that my nose and mouth cant be seen . Dude ,

imagine if everybody's without noses nor mouths . Oh dang . Lol . Idk what i was trying

to do at that point of time . Old picture man .

So , i didnt went out with friends to break fast outside yesterday nor did i went to my art

teacher's . I chose to stay at home to atleast make an effort to do some parts of my course

work before heading out to civic to colour photocopy my art pictures for prelims . Im doing

on necklaces , yippy . The simplest items to do on and definitely the prettiest things .

But apparently by the time , i reached the library , it was closed so i head back to CWP

and get a few things done . Ive already started on my art prep for prelims , yaay me(:

Before going out , upon finishing my last section of the coursework that i had planned to

finish for the night , i received a call from Baby . The boys , Kak Nisya , Angel's GF and

Meera was at civic coincidently . After i headed to CWP , i head back to civic to slum for

awhile since i know ive done my part for art and that i feel satisfied about that , cause i dont

wanna make my art teacher worry again . Plus , i didnt catch their competition earlier in

the afternoon yesterday , so yea . Anyhoo for Aryxsha , i really am sorry for the trouble

ive caused . I certainly have read your little note that was clearly written for me .

Damn , now i feel bad for not behaving :(

Okay moving on .

Picture above taken during BREATHE event last year in late October , if im not wrong .

I definitely look fugly here because of the bad hair day . Was rushing to the event to catch

the performances being put up , so i ran and the outcome is as above , lol . The old times

when i wore beanies and bermudas , and loved dressing like a guy -.- But look at me now(:

Anyhoo , Happy Sexy 19th Birthday Mizan . May success be with you always and may you

be blessed with love . Last long with your GF dude . A great friend you were yo . Thanks for

all the good deeds you've done dude(:

On a very random note , indeed . I love GG .

Chace Crawford(:

Blake Lively

Leighton Meester

Taylor Momsen

Remember the little girl from the movie , The Grinch ?

Ahh , Taylor Momsen . We all love her , dont you ?

Loving what Leighton's wearing , simple yet nice ;)

I gotta hit the sacks now , it's almost three and i gotta wake up for sahur to help mum

in the kitchen , heheh . Till then , i'll update soon & oh , i wanna change blog song soon .
Heh . Okay bye(:

Mood : Lethargic

Current Song : Down By Jay Sean